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steve the crazy but attractive man when he sings.. SP_A0302.jpg) he's the one i love most!!!!! cos he's always there!  a veri sweet girl she say she's ugly here but i dun think so  ZI QIN ZI QIN ZI QIN!!! a god nurse she will be!I love her!!!!   He's always acting cute! but i still love him!  SP_A0317.jpg) she is a girl i would definitely wanna be friends again!SP_A0315.jpg) Argh i love her them too!!!SP_A0314.jpg) i can already feel myself missing her laughter again!!!SP_A0313.jpg) My favourite darling!!! i love u!!!SP_A0309.jpg) SP_A0308.jpg) SP_A0307.jpg) Chien wen has too much photos!!! argh!SP_A0303.jpg) Xue ting is my favourite girl!!! work hard for whatever's coming and dun gif up!!! I'll support u no matter what!!! :)ok... I am officially not a np students anymore
argh!!! it really scares me... arrrrrr!!!! i really dun bear!!!! 我真的不舍得。 Well i really hope i can keep my promise to those i made... on top are those memories of SCC i wanna keep! if ur pic is not up there means i got no chance to take with u. for example? GARY!!! he say hair messy so he dun want take with me -.- win liao lor.. DICKSON!!! and etc... overall i love peeps in scc!!!
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
 Hmmm... Sometimes i really wonderWhy is love so complicated? I went to find my mom today haha.. My mom's neighbour send me back home and my mom followed us... So when we were in the car. we were talking abt some stuffs hair... bags.. etc things that woman and girls talked about. And we talked abt love too.. Suddenly i had a question i wanted to ask.. Avier: Mummy i ask u something but u dun scold me. Mummy: ok ask ba. Avier: Have u fall in love with daddy before? Because if i were u i wouldn't fall in love with him. (my dad is ok juz that my mum character and mine is too alike. And i wouldn't fall for some 1 like him) Neighbour: I'm sure she did. sure like titanic u die i die... we all laughed. Mummy: Actually i dislike ur dad. cos i find him alittle short for guys but he keep pestering me.. so i think try lor. he is really a nice guy i muz admit juz that he dun have mindset of his own neighbour: Short better den me now with some 1 now not so close le i rather have true love. I wonder what is true love? Love is so complicated. It's amazing how u dun have feeling for another party and suddenly u think he/she is nice and u began to like him/her then after that divorce because u realize there's no feeling? lol maybe thAT's why my parents divorce? hmmm.. It's really funny huh? perhaps there's no true love.. maybe before getting married we really have to know our partner well And we ought to know that.. maintaining love is really hard work. However i have confidence with me and my future husband! I'm going to make love happens! no matter how hard it is :)
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
I noe i juz blogged not long ago..
But i am really touched now i dun mean to make u guys sad.. I am really sorry... I'm sorry ppL... It's all my fault... but Pls understand that i really wanna try out what i like even if i failed i got no regrets... But I'm really touched i really touched tthat Jia Yi and Mei Har loVes me sooo much... i Really dun wanna leave... But I haVe no chOice!!! \ seeing them like this it pains my heart... When u all are awake and not drunk anymore Pls remember something I AM always there for u.. Juz giF me a call and i will be there *mE siNgs: If u wanna cry cry on my shoulder If u need sum1 who cares for u if u feeling sad ur heart get colder then i show u what real love can do~ Jia yi mei har! i love u! pls dun be sad because i will leave veri sad if u all are sad i'm really sorry... sorry is all i can say... It really pains me seeing them like this... SORRY!!!!
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
OMG!!! Jia yi! Mei haR and Winston is Drunk!!! mEI HAr i noe u are drunk... But do u noe what u doing.. Mei har has drink 8 glasses of nits now she is drunk.... with jiA yi and keep saying Hi 5 to jia yi!! the worst thing is mei har is veri bad temper now!! and she walk side to side.. swaying side to side!!! mei har!!! u have told us who u like le... u are dead!! Jia yi and Mei hAr really mad... they are pinching each other ass... only winston is calm.. hE is Knocking out soon Mei Har and Jia yi Is fighting Mei har said she is a fucking bitch so do u think she is drunk ? lol i admit i am light headed after drinking 7 glasses of Nits... But now i am watching all the fun show!!! lol\ ok i stop here le... resume to my show... niTe niTe...
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
(pls play the song before proceeding!) u have to do so!!! pls pls pls Today many things ran past my mind.
So i started blogging once i finished bathing I wouldn't want to slip out anything But if i did... I'm sorry cos really too long le Hmmm... Let's start with some happpy things ba cos it will become emo as it goes... but emo in a good way :) I didn't go to school today... As expected rite? lol... Anyway I'm veri happy cos i received a news from jiayi i'll be singing 如果 this thurs i really hope that it's not a false hope but i finally get to perform in public! IT'S MY FIRST TIME!!!! I was at my mum's place when i heard this news and when i was on the bus i went through many many things in my mind I was thinking finally i get to perform in public for my own song before i leave Like this i wil have no regret leaving then suddenly i realise how much i cant bear to leave SCC But i got no choice.. And i am surprised on how attached i am with SCC I remembered the first time in SCC Mei Har was the first person i knew And we only had each other back then so we were quite isolated.. Then in one of the activities i started to know hui yi and jia yi haha and we attended guitar lesson together after starting guitar lesson I began to frquent the clubhouse Slowly i had feelings for SCC and i try not to miss any wednesday classes as much as possible so mostly i won pon any wed class at all :) Here I would like to thank SCC Because SCC is the only thing that makes my life in school feel like a real school Because of all the friendly ppl there During the camp I start to really notice Zi Qin, Wan Ting, Ivy, Tiffany, Zhi Wei, Peixin and 1 alumni ( i don't know the name) be cause I sprained my leg and they tried their veri best to put me inside the cab I really had to thank them on how much sweat they have to lose because they have to carry such a FAT girl. Zhi Wei is actually a veri nice guy but he is too hot tempered so i am actually quite afraid of him but still i have to thank him on the sprained leg incident. I had to thank Wan Ting and Ivy when i see how they rushed over to take a look at my leg. when i remember this i feel the warmth to actually see how they care abt u when actually u are not even close to them. Pei xin that silly girl so small size yet tries so hard to want to carry me but i really appreciate it! That Alumni of course muz thank not only carry me to taxi still gif me 5 dollars we make a pact that i will return u that money but i haven yet! liar! Now moving on to next big occasion CHALET!!! It was then i start to know more ppl Gary( that chao ah beng) Thanks for teasing me! lol i mean it! u are deep inside my impression really! Dickson that cute guy lol makes us laugh like siao always play psp... pls interact more dude! Ken the nice guy who treats every 1 so well i always feel like his little sister when around him i have to thank him for that.. he gave me feeling i never will had wahaha!!! Chien Wen and Xue Ting I remember how they tell me i am so beautiful not only outside but inside thanks it really make me feel good and really boast my confidence :) Xue Ting i dunno why but i always treated u more den juz friends like a sister u gif me an impression that u need protection whenever u share ur woes :) seeing u so niave quite cute but wait! i am not a les! dun worry! Fun a guy who told me he like my straightforwardness! the first person in my life who told me that ppl always hate me because of my straight forwardness... So it really helps at least some 1 dun think straight forwardness is a nuisance. Steve Soh ,the crazy guy who wouldn't let go of my hands when we went OCH!!! that was when i really know him and find out he isn't as hostile as i thought hence we now become crazy mates!!! Winston! Thanks for putting up the chalet and i ended up knowing so many nice ppl! but did i still owe u chalet money? pls remind me if i did.. haha Cynthia. A veri nice person to talk to also and she always telling me how good i already am and keep telling me not to bother what other ppl said abt me.. Zi Qin I remember how we two are the lonely souls that have to climb the bridge and then sit down wait for bus we will start to talk i think that's when we become closer? since then i treated u like a big sis.. Guo Long Thanks for teaching me some singing tips i appreciate it! Tiffany. Tell u a secret i abit dislike u when i was being change for the song 如果 but dun worry it's juz temporary that i cant accept the fact. However am reallly thankful u sing it so well and even ask me for most opinion to keep me involved Thanks really! :) if i sing ru guo maybe it wouldn't be this popular :) and 1 more thing! u are a veri good president! really! Johnny that fedex! (fatass) lol thanks for joking and playing with me when i was quite isolated thanks for getting me involve.. U make a great vice-president! both u and tiffany are veri good leaders! really! Hui Hui a veri nice darling of mine always talk to me in msn and i feel so wanted whenever i talk to them last but not least JIAYI!!!! do u know i long regarded u as my best friend? even if u dun believe in best friend! i do! Because of u i feel so loved by friends because of u ppl notices me and even though u dun think of me as a best frien i understand why.. not because i'm not good enough it's because of the hurt u once received but i would like to tell u! once a best friend forever a best friend! I am not sure whether i have mention ppl that have impact on my mind in SCC but i hope i hadn't missed any 1 out because of each and every one of u i actually had the feelings of 不舍 I'm sure u all are guessing why am i saying all these but i am leaving NP le I use a few weeks to decide whether i should leave and i think i should not because i cant stand the life in NP but because i am going out to try something else to reach my goal it will be tougher i might not make it but i rather try :) i hope u all respect my decision pls dun try to make me waver... And i always thought that if i can leave NP i will be veri happy but i am so wrong SCC is binding me! when i was in bus thinking abt each and every one of u tears start dropping down i cant imagine how hard it is.. sure there are many bad thing in poly and i hated it! but ppl like u all really pull me up! U all might think it's juz a casual comment or simple actions u all done but it really warm my heart! that's what ppl call FAMILY!!! and i remember all this simple gesture because when out there ppl are hating me making life difficult u guys are there with simple gesture to make me feel loved i really cant bear to leave u all so i am writing down all these to tell u all how much i appreciate u all how much i appreciate SCC!!! Now moving on... fRIENDS i should thank Adeline My CATS mate. didn;t noe i can click with some 1 so fast. thank and i enjoy the cats lesson we had together! Joanne, Jocelyn, Sue, Jasmine Thanks u all for supporting me during my darkest period! i would never 4 get u all! REALLY! Mingster, Daniel, JIng Xun, Calvin Sim and Goh, Jesslyn, Michelle Lek fallenangel( i 4get ur name! oops!) (p1A2) Steven, Faizal, KH, Samuel, Hafiz (p1A3) u might think u have done nth much but thanks for been my friend i have so much fun with u guys there... Brenda and Zi Yan my close girlfriends My tues and weds are filled with colours because of u two! u have no idea how much u all meant without u all i might not even last so long :) Zi yan thanks for ur pressie i'm sorry i didn't return a gift to u but i am still caught with surprise! glad to know such a sweet friend! Brenda glad to know u too! without ur craziness there wil be fewer laughter! Ronald! Thanks for going home with me u are considered 1 of my close friend maybe u might not treat me as 1 but thanks for always listening to me talking with me "sharing fantasy" I never thought that we would actually be this close wahaha maybe u might think that we go home together is juz 顺路 but with my looks and size some ppl won even wanna talk to me whatsmore going home with me? ur actions means alot really!!! I noe some of these ppl will not read my blog but i dun wanna fill with regrets not telling how i feel abt them so pls... spread to ask them come see them self cos i cant possibly tell them straight in the face but i wanna let them know how much i appreciate them! NP really teaches me a lot of things i used to be such a brat talk without using my brain but now ppl who know me much earlier can see the change in me i noe i am still imperfect sometimes i might repeat my mistake but i am still a human i need time to change thanks guys for being there And i would like to thank those ppl who make my life difficult.. i am not being sarcastic i mean it! without u all i might not change so much without u all i might take people's action for granted.. without u all i never knew that i would actually thank ppl that makes life difficult for me I've learned that thru all these hard lesson! I gained much more than ppl out there! so once again thanks! I really love SCC btw, pls dun ask me abt the leaving sch thing i really dun wanna explain anymore. I really considered properly le pls dun ask me change my mind.. wish me all the best ba :) if u are a true friend! :) btw pls dun think it's an suicidal letter it's juz ppl i wanna thank and i am writing it down! :)
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
(p.s. play the song before u read on)
I am sorry gal sorry for things i said maybe i was too blunt and i apologise for that but i really meant well u might not say it out but from your facial expression i can see i can see that u might not like what i say maybe that is why u are telling me lesser things now I thought ... i thought u need advice but i guess what u really need is a listening ear But girl whateva happens pls dun be unhappy with ur life u are blessed born in a family with mum and dad who love u so well U are blessed with many friends who loves u too U need time to search for true friends. But with ur character u can surely find 1 it's juz a matter of time really Love? maybe that's y they say god is fair u have all the good things so now u need to fight for love but it'll all be worth it :) gal i really wish u really smile from ur heart again ur smile is no longer that bright smile anymore it's something that u juz stick it on u might not realise it but i cant see the glow in u anymore i really missed the old u! for friends who love u for family who loves u for your future love who loves u u need to be happy because We are all worried for u right now Gal do u noe something? u are very very fortunate i really envy u u are not only pretty u have a character that shines u have family who loves u so much u know it rite? I know u do but i had none of this i had to fight so hard but no matter how i fight what do i have? i only have annie and you and jia yi who understands me But u are different :) u have many friends but u need to let things grow first u cant rush things and if everything fails u always have home to run to but me? if let say i lost all my friends? i can only run to myself because i got nth else whenever i think abt all these i cry myself to sleep i might seem happy with my life but then i dun even have the most impt thing in life they are not friends. it's family but because i dun have it so friends become the most impt but gal u have a great family and 1 day u will have great friends and love too u juz have to work hard for it not everything comes to u for free so pls dun be unhappy with ur life u can think life's tough u can regret things you've done u can grumble how life suckz but u cant be unhappy with life because if u are unhappy with it den u will lose ur drive to work hard to make ur life happy My life is tough and i grumble how life's not fair but seriously compared to others i noe mine life is not so bad at least i am born in singapore with food and water to live imagine others who are born not only with no family but oso no food and water? how much do they have to suffer? whenever u are unhappy? try thinking of others so much worst? i am not trying to be naggy here but gal i really hope u can smile like u used to be it pains my heart to see u depressed i may nag at u or even scold u but girl i dun mean it i juz hope u be happy if u ever need some 1 to talk to i dun have to be the first but as long as it can make u feel better u can call me u can ask me to shut up and be a good listening ear i would do it as long as u feel better if u would be happier u can even talk to other ppl but girl i hope u really fight hard to try to be happy again u control things around u to be happy life not let things control u cos u will neva be happy if u let things control u whatever it is be happy girl we, friends and family will be there for u cos we love u for who u are girl and once again i'm sorry to make u feel unhappy with my words
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
7 Random facts about me:- 1. I am fat 2. I love choclates! 3. I am cute but damn idotic :p 4. I love hamster but they dun seem to live for more den a year :( (sad isn't it?) 5. I love to dy my hair 6. I look like a person with cancer w/o make up 7. I hate wearing bra!!! OOPS hehe 7 things that scare me:- 1. ghost ( though i love ghost) 2. Alone 3. A guy who pesters non stop 4. single for a long time ( which is like now! bo hoo hoo) 5. Having 3 hours break in school alone!!!! ( which is practically now!) 6. hairs in toilet 7. toilet that smells like shit! 7 Favourite Music Artists at the moment:- 1. SHE 2. 5566 3. AVIER KWEK (lol) 4. westlife 5. - 6. - 7. - 7 Things I like most:- 1. friends 2. Music 3. singing 4. chocolate 5. KFC 6. sleeping 7. GAMING 7 LUCKY people to do this:- 1. Xueting 2. Mandy 3. huihui 4. zi qin 5. Cynthia 6. Cheryl 7. MeiHar
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Life is so bored...
wIthoUt any aIms to stRive fuRther and higher Without any lOve to sPice up everything i yeArn Now i"m here writing some stupid stuffs to let time pass faster... If only? If only i was slimmer? would i have a better life? as in would things have a better ending? would i have special privilege? If only? If only i was prettier? would i still need to work so hard for love i always wanted? would i be feeling this emptiness?? seriously would i feel better would i be happier if only i was slimmer and prettier??? haha but then again i noe veri well whatever happen it was for my own good... that is why i am stronger and more mature? However i still have many many faults that need to be mended... juz hope that this is a better year:)
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! It's really funny how time passes so fast and 1 yr is gone... And every yr my resolution is the same... that is to silm down :P AND EVERY YR I'M GETTING FATTER!!! ARGH! Last year had been a terrible year for me... many difficulties up ahead.. but then i dun deny that at least my life gets better in the end... but i really hope tis year would be a better yr.. because i am tired of facing obstacles i really need some rest And it's like i'm all alone so this yr i really hope to have some 1 there for me... i really miss being in r/s...haha Anyway i went countdown last night and i am surprised at how much i really grown... In the past, i like this type of crowded occasion... But this year i feel tired seeing so many ppl crowding around spraying some nonsenstical foam... I rather we gather 1 small bunch of ppl and then we can countdown on our own! that would be much much more fun! I've really grown up... Anyway SCC concert was a great success... at first i was devastated abt not having to sing my own song... and i dread going to scc meetings cos i am afraid afraid to face it! But now i am happy! although i am stil disappointed that i cant sing but at least they change the singer to some 1 much better and i heard feed back that that song is veri nice so here i would like to thank TIFFANY for singing my song and making it sound so nice. I am really happy that at least in the performance. she gets me involved asking me what she should wear for 如果... at least i noe she wants the best for 如果too... That really makes me relieve.. anyway i noe i will get into concert this yr! cos i am going to work hard to make it happen... :) I'VE REALLY GROWN UP! GROWN TO BE A BETTER PERSON! :)
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
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