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I'm officially out...
Thursday, January 31, 2008 at 1/31/2008 10:35:00 PM

steve the crazy but attractive man when he sings..
he's the one i love most!!!!!

cos he's always there!
a veri sweet girl she say she's ugly here but i dun think so
ZI QIN ZI QIN ZI QIN!!! a god nurse she will be!
I love her!!!!

He's always acting cute! but i still love him!

she is a girl i would definitely wanna be friends again!
Argh i love her them too!!!
i can already feel myself missing her laughter again!!!
My favourite darling!!! i love u!!!

Chien wen has too much photos!!! argh!
Xue ting is my favourite girl!!! work hard for whatever's coming and dun gif up!!! I'll support u no matter what!!! :)

ok... I am officially not a np students anymore
argh!!! it really scares me...
arrrrrr!!!! i really dun bear!!!!
Well i really hope i can keep my promise
to those i made...
on top are those memories of SCC i wanna keep!
if ur pic is not up there means i got no
chance to take with u.
for example? GARY!!! he say hair messy so he dun want take with me -.- win liao lor..
DICKSON!!! and etc...
overall i love peeps in scc!!!

Life is a song and I'll play for you.

Love is complicated
Tuesday, January 29, 2008 at 1/29/2008 08:45:00 PM

Hmmm... Sometimes i really wonder
Why is love so complicated?
I went to find my mom today
My mom's neighbour send me back home
and my mom followed us...

So when we were in the car.
we were talking abt some stuffs
hair... bags.. etc
things that woman and girls talked about.
And we talked abt love too..
Suddenly i had a question i wanted to ask..

Avier: Mummy i ask u something but u dun scold me.
Mummy: ok ask ba.
Avier: Have u fall in love with daddy before? Because if i were u i wouldn't fall in love with him.
(my dad is ok juz that my mum character and mine is too alike. And i wouldn't fall for some 1 like him)
Neighbour: I'm sure she did. sure like titanic u die i die...
we all laughed.
Mummy: Actually i dislike ur dad. cos i find him alittle short for guys
but he keep pestering me.. so i think try lor.
he is really a nice guy i muz admit juz that
he dun have mindset of his own
neighbour: Short better den me now
with some 1 now not so close le i rather have true love.

I wonder what is true love?
Love is so complicated.
It's amazing how u dun have feeling for another party
and suddenly u think he/she is nice and u began to like him/her
then after that divorce because u realize there's no feeling?
lol maybe thAT's why my parents divorce?

It's really funny huh?
perhaps there's no true love..
maybe before getting married we really have to know our partner well
And we ought to know that..
maintaining love is really hard work.
However i have confidence with me and my future husband!

I'm going to make love happens!
no matter how hard it is :)

Life is a song and I'll play for you.

I am touched
Saturday, January 26, 2008 at 1/26/2008 07:24:00 AM

I noe i juz blogged not long ago..
But i am really touched now
i dun mean to make u guys sad..
I am really sorry...

I'm sorry ppL...
It's all my fault...
but Pls understand that i really wanna try out what i like
even if i failed i got no regrets...

But I'm really touched
i really touched tthat Jia Yi and Mei Har loVes me sooo much...
i Really dun wanna leave...
But I haVe no chOice!!!
seeing them like this it pains my heart...
When u all are awake and not drunk anymore
Pls remember something
I AM always there for u..
Juz giF me a call and i will be there

*mE siNgs: If u wanna cry
cry on my shoulder
If u need sum1
who cares for u
if u feeling sad
ur heart get colder
then i show u what real love can do~

Jia yi mei har!
i love u!
pls dun be sad
because i will leave veri sad if u all are sad
i'm really sorry...
sorry is all i can say...

It really pains me seeing them like this...

Life is a song and I'll play for you.

OMG Every One's Drunk!!!!
at 1/26/2008 06:46:00 AM

OMG!!! Jia yi! Mei haR and Winston is Drunk!!!
mEI HAr i noe u are drunk...
But do u noe what u doing..
Mei har has drink 8 glasses of nits
now she is drunk....
with jiA yi and keep saying Hi 5
to jia yi!!
the worst thing is mei har is veri bad temper now!!
and she walk side to side..
swaying side to side!!!
mei har!!!
u have told us who u like le...
u are dead!!
Jia yi and Mei hAr really mad...
they are pinching each other ass...
only winston is calm..
hE is Knocking out soon
Mei Har and Jia yi Is fighting
Mei har said she is a fucking bitch
so do u think she is drunk
i admit i am light headed after drinking 7 glasses of Nits...
But now i am watching all the fun show!!!
ok i stop here le... resume to my show...
niTe niTe...

Life is a song and I'll play for you.

Thanks guys!
Tuesday, January 22, 2008 at 1/22/2008 09:37:00 PM

(pls play the song before proceeding!) u have to do so!!! pls pls pls

Today many things ran past my mind.
So i started blogging once i finished bathing
I wouldn't want to slip out anything
But if i did...
I'm sorry cos really too long le

Hmmm... Let's start with some happpy things ba
cos it will become emo as it goes...
but emo in a good way :)

I didn't go to school today...
As expected rite?
lol... Anyway I'm veri happy
cos i received a news from jiayi
i'll be singing 如果 this thurs
i really hope that it's not a false hope
but i finally get to perform in public!

I was at my mum's place when i heard this news
and when i was on the bus
i went through many many things in my mind
I was thinking finally i get to perform in public for my own song
before i leave

Like this i wil have no regret leaving
then suddenly i realise how much i cant bear to leave SCC
But i got no choice..
And i am surprised on how attached i am with SCC

I remembered the first time in SCC
Mei Har was the first person i knew
And we only had each other back then
so we were quite isolated..

Then in one of the activities i started to know hui yi and jia yi
haha and we attended guitar lesson together
after starting guitar lesson
I began to frquent the clubhouse

Slowly i had feelings for SCC
and i try not to miss any wednesday classes as much as possible
so mostly i won pon any wed class at all :)

Here I would like to thank SCC
Because SCC is the only thing that makes my life in school
feel like a real school
Because of all the friendly ppl there

During the camp
I start to really notice Zi Qin, Wan Ting, Ivy, Tiffany, Zhi Wei, Peixin
and 1 alumni ( i don't know the name)
be cause I sprained my leg and they tried their veri best to put me inside the cab
I really had to thank them on how much sweat they have to lose
because they have to carry such a FAT girl.

Zhi Wei is actually a veri nice guy
but he is too hot tempered
so i am actually quite afraid of him
but still i have to thank him on the sprained leg incident.

I had to thank Wan Ting and Ivy when i see how they rushed over
to take a look at my leg.
when i remember this i feel the warmth to actually see
how they care abt u when actually u are not even close to them.

Pei xin that silly girl
so small size yet tries so hard to want to carry me
but i really appreciate it!

That Alumni of course muz thank
not only carry me to taxi still gif me 5 dollars
we make a pact that i will return u that money but
i haven yet! liar!

Now moving on to next big occasion
It was then i start to know more ppl

Gary( that chao ah beng) Thanks for teasing me! lol
i mean it! u are deep inside my impression really!

Dickson that cute guy
lol makes us laugh like siao
always play psp...
pls interact more dude!

Ken the nice guy
who treats every 1 so well
i always feel like his little sister when around him
i have to thank him for that..
he gave me feeling i never will had

Chien Wen and Xue Ting
I remember how they tell me
i am so beautiful not only outside but inside
thanks it really make me feel good
and really boast my confidence :)

Xue Ting i dunno why
but i always treated u more den juz friends
like a sister
u gif me an impression that u need protection
whenever u share ur woes :)
seeing u so niave quite cute
but wait! i am not a les! dun worry!

a guy who told me he like my straightforwardness!
the first person in my life who told me that
ppl always hate me because of my straight forwardness...
So it really helps at least some 1 dun think
straight forwardness is a nuisance.

Steve Soh ,the crazy guy who wouldn't let go
of my hands when we went OCH!!!
that was when i really know him
and find out he isn't as hostile as i thought
hence we now become crazy mates!!!

Winston! Thanks for putting up the chalet
and i ended up knowing so many nice ppl!
but did i still owe u chalet money?
pls remind me if i did.. haha

Cynthia. A veri nice person to talk to also
and she always telling me how good i already am
and keep telling me not to bother what other ppl said abt me..

Zi Qin
I remember how we two are the lonely souls
that have to climb the bridge
and then sit down wait for bus
we will start to talk i think that's when we become closer?
since then i treated u like a big sis..

Guo Long
Thanks for teaching me some singing tips
i appreciate it!

Tell u a secret
i abit dislike u when i was being change for the song
but dun worry it's juz temporary that i cant accept the fact.
However am reallly thankful u sing it so well
and even ask me for most opinion to keep me involved
Thanks really! :)
if i sing ru guo maybe it wouldn't be this popular :)
and 1 more thing! u are a veri good president! really!

that fedex! (fatass) lol
thanks for joking and playing with me when i was quite isolated
thanks for getting me involve..
U make a great vice-president!
both u and tiffany are veri good leaders! really!

Hui Hui a veri nice darling of mine
always talk to me in msn
and i feel so wanted whenever i talk to them

last but not least JIAYI!!!!
do u know i long regarded u as my best friend?
even if u dun believe in best friend!
i do!
Because of u i feel so loved by friends
because of u ppl notices me
and even though u dun think of me as a best frien
i understand why..
not because i'm not good enough
it's because of the hurt u once received
but i would like to tell u!
once a best friend forever a best friend!

I am not sure whether i have mention ppl that have impact
on my mind in SCC
but i hope i hadn't missed any 1 out
because of each and every one of u
i actually had the feelings of 不舍

I'm sure u all are guessing why am i saying all these
but i am leaving NP le
I use a few weeks to decide whether
i should leave
and i think i should
not because i cant stand the life in NP
but because i am going out to try something else to reach my goal
it will be tougher
i might not make it
but i rather try :)
i hope u all respect my decision
pls dun try to make me waver...

And i always thought that if i can leave NP i will be veri happy
but i am so wrong SCC is binding me!
when i was in bus thinking abt each and every one of u
tears start dropping down
i cant imagine how hard it is..
sure there are many bad thing in poly
and i hated it!
but ppl like u all really pull me up!
U all might think it's juz a casual comment
or simple actions u all done

but it really warm my heart!
that's what ppl call FAMILY!!!
and i remember all this simple gesture
because when out there ppl are hating me
making life difficult
u guys are there with simple gesture
to make me feel loved

i really cant bear to leave u all so i am writing down
all these to tell u all
how much i appreciate u all
how much i appreciate SCC!!!

Now moving on...
fRIENDS i should thank

My CATS mate.
didn;t noe i can click with some 1 so fast.
thank and i enjoy the cats lesson we had together!

Joanne, Jocelyn, Sue, Jasmine
Thanks u all for supporting me
during my darkest period!
i would never 4 get u all! REALLY!

Mingster, Daniel, JIng Xun, Calvin Sim and Goh, Jesslyn, Michelle Lek
fallenangel( i 4get ur name! oops!) (p1A2)
Steven, Faizal, KH, Samuel, Hafiz (p1A3)
u might think u have done nth much but thanks for
been my friend i have so much fun
with u guys there...

Brenda and Zi Yan my close girlfriends
My tues and weds are filled with colours because
of u two!
u have no idea how much u all meant
without u all
i might not even last so long :)
Zi yan thanks for ur pressie
i'm sorry i didn't return a gift to u
but i am still caught with surprise!
glad to know such a sweet friend!
Brenda glad to know u too!
without ur craziness
there wil be fewer laughter!

Thanks for going home with me
u are considered 1 of my close friend
maybe u might not treat me as 1
but thanks for always listening to me
talking with me
"sharing fantasy"
I never thought that we would actually be this close
maybe u might think that we go home together
is juz 顺路
but with my looks and size
some ppl won even wanna talk to me
whatsmore going home with me?
ur actions means alot really!!!

I noe some of these ppl will not read my blog
but i dun wanna fill with regrets
not telling how i feel abt them
so pls... spread to ask them come see them self
cos i cant possibly tell them straight in the face
but i wanna let them know how much i appreciate them!

NP really teaches me a lot of things
i used to be such a brat
talk without using my brain
but now ppl who know me much earlier
can see the change in me
i noe i am still imperfect
sometimes i might repeat my mistake
but i am still a human
i need time to change
thanks guys for being there

And i would like to thank those ppl
who make my life difficult..
i am not being sarcastic
i mean it!
without u all i might not change so much
without u all i might take people's action for granted..
without u all i never knew that
i would actually thank ppl that makes life difficult for me
I've learned that thru all these hard lesson!
I gained much more than ppl out there!
so once again thanks!

I really love SCC
btw, pls dun ask me abt the leaving sch thing
i really dun wanna explain anymore.
I really considered properly le
pls dun ask me change my mind..
wish me all the best ba :)
if u are a true friend! :)

btw pls dun think it's an suicidal letter
it's juz ppl i wanna thank
and i am writing it down! :)

Life is a song and I'll play for you.

I'm sorry
Tuesday, January 15, 2008 at 1/15/2008 11:15:00 PM

(p.s. play the song before u read on)

I am sorry gal

sorry for things i said
maybe i was too blunt and i apologise for that
but i really meant well

u might not say it out
but from your facial expression i can see
i can see that u might not like what i say
maybe that is why u are telling me lesser things now

I thought ...
i thought u need advice
but i guess what u really need is a listening ear

But girl whateva happens
pls dun be unhappy with ur life
u are blessed
born in a family with mum and dad
who love u so well

U are blessed with many friends who loves u too
U need time to search for true friends.
But with ur character u can surely find 1
it's juz a matter of time really

maybe that's y they say god is fair
u have all the good things
so now u need to fight for love
but it'll all be worth it :)

gal i really wish u really smile from ur heart again
ur smile is no longer that bright smile anymore
it's something that u juz stick it on
u might not realise it
but i cant see the glow in u anymore
i really missed the old u!

for friends who love u
for family who loves u
for your future love who loves u
u need to be happy because
We are all worried for u right now

do u noe something?
u are very very fortunate
i really envy u
u are not only pretty
u have a character that shines
u have family who loves u so much
u know it rite?
I know u do

but i had none of this
i had to fight so hard
but no matter how i fight
what do i have?
i only have annie and you and jia yi
who understands me

But u are different :)
u have many friends
but u need to let things grow first
u cant rush things
and if everything fails u always have home to run to

but me?
if let say i lost all my friends?
i can only run to myself
because i got nth else

whenever i think abt all these
i cry myself to sleep
i might seem happy with my life
but then
i dun even have the most impt thing in life
they are not friends.

it's family
but because i dun have it
so friends become the most impt

but gal u have a great family
and 1 day u will have great friends and love too
u juz have to work hard for it
not everything comes to u for free
so pls dun be unhappy with ur life

u can think life's tough
u can regret things you've done
u can grumble how life suckz
but u cant be unhappy with life
because if u are unhappy with it
den u will lose ur drive to work hard to make ur life happy

My life is tough
and i grumble how life's not fair
but seriously compared to others i noe mine life is not so bad
at least i am born in singapore with food and water to live

imagine others who are born
not only with no family but oso no food and water?
how much do they have to suffer?
whenever u are unhappy?
try thinking of others so much worst?

i am not trying to be naggy here
but gal i really hope u can smile like u used to be
it pains my heart to see u

i may nag at u
or even scold u
but girl i dun mean it
i juz hope u be happy

if u ever need some 1 to talk to
i dun have to be the first
but as long as it can make u feel better
u can call me
u can ask me to shut up
and be a good listening ear
i would do it as long as u feel better

if u would be happier u can even talk to other ppl
but girl
i hope u really fight hard to try to be happy again
u control things around u to be happy life
not let things control u

cos u will neva be happy if u let things control u

whatever it is be happy girl
we, friends and family will be there for u
cos we love u for who u are

girl and once again i'm sorry to make u feel unhappy with my words

Life is a song and I'll play for you.

Monday, January 14, 2008 at 1/14/2008 01:59:00 PM

7 Random facts about me:-

1. I am fat
2. I love choclates!
3. I am cute but damn idotic :p
4. I love hamster but they dun seem to live for more den a year :( (sad isn't it?)
5. I love to dy my hair
6. I look like a person with cancer w/o make up
7. I hate wearing bra!!! OOPS hehe

7 things that scare me:-

1. ghost ( though i love ghost)
2. Alone
3. A guy who pesters non stop
4. single for a long time ( which is like now! bo hoo hoo)
5. Having 3 hours break in school alone!!!! ( which is practically now!)
6. hairs in toilet
7. toilet that smells like shit!

7 Favourite Music Artists at the moment:-
1. SHE
2. 5566
3. AVIER KWEK (lol)
4. westlife
5. -
6. -
7. -
7 Things I like most:-

1. friends
2. Music
3. singing
4. chocolate
5. KFC
6. sleeping

7 LUCKY people to do this:-

1. Xueting
2. Mandy
3. huihui
4. zi qin
5. Cynthia
6. Cheryl
7. MeiHar

Life is a song and I'll play for you.

Saturday, January 12, 2008 at 1/12/2008 06:16:00 PM

What Avier Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.
You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.
Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

Life is a song and I'll play for you.

Life is so boring~
at 1/12/2008 12:14:00 AM

Life is so bored...

wIthoUt any aIms to stRive fuRther and higher
Without any lOve to sPice up everything i yeArn
Now i"m here writing some stupid stuffs
to let time pass faster...

If only?
If only i was slimmer?
would i have a better life?
as in would things have a better ending?
would i have special privilege?

If only?
If only i was prettier?
would i still need to work so hard for love i always wanted?
would i be feeling this emptiness??

seriously would i feel better
would i be happier
if only i was slimmer and prettier???

but then again i noe veri well
whatever happen
it was for my own good...
that is why i am stronger and more mature?

However i still have many many faults that need
to be mended...

juz hope that this is a better year:)

Life is a song and I'll play for you.

2008 had arrived...
Tuesday, January 1, 2008 at 1/01/2008 08:47:00 PM

It's really funny how time passes so fast and 1 yr is gone...
And every yr my resolution is the same...
that is to silm down :P

Last year had been a terrible year for me...
many difficulties up ahead..
but then i dun deny that at least my life gets better in the end...
but i really hope tis year would be a better yr..
because i am tired of facing obstacles i really need some rest

And it's like i'm all alone
so this yr i really hope to have some 1 there for me...
i really miss being in r/s...haha

Anyway i went countdown last night and i am surprised at how much i really grown...
In the past, i like this type of crowded occasion...
But this year i feel tired seeing so many ppl crowding around
spraying some nonsenstical foam...
I rather we gather 1 small bunch of ppl and then we can countdown on our own!
that would be much much more fun!
I've really grown up...

Anyway SCC concert was a great success...
at first i was devastated abt not having to sing my own song...
and i dread going to scc meetings cos i am afraid
afraid to face it!
But now i am happy!
although i am stil disappointed that i cant sing
but at least they change the singer to some 1 much better
and i heard feed back that that song is veri nice
so here i would like to thank TIFFANY for singing my song and making it sound so nice.
I am really happy that at least in the performance.
she gets me involved asking me
what she should wear for 如果...
at least i noe she wants the best for 如果too...
That really makes me relieve..

anyway i noe i will get into concert this yr!
cos i am going to work hard to make it happen...


Life is a song and I'll play for you.