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ARGH!!! help me!!!
I'm having a bad sore throat. And I lost my voice! wa!!! sad! OK I'm so tired after a day full of activities! Well, not really activities but nonetheless it's still a very long day! First we have our lesson as usual! let me tell u the first joke of the day. After ms Ching Ching lesson we were going for our break when i asked : "CHER, do u notice any difference in me today." Ching: u changed your eyelashes to a shorter ones? ME: not really, actually I tied up my hair today but i 4got u seen it yesterday. Ching: OIC, btw u look nicer with lesser makeup. just then my shirt button slipped open Ching: hey i think u need a push button i can see ur red BRA. ME SHRUG. "what to do? I have big breast! LOL" And she basically whacked me! So off i went to lunch. After school we went to national museum for briefing for our volunteering work, for the children season. And guess what! There's this guy! he's damn cute!!! Well he isn't handsome! in fact he's a little geeky! but he have some cuteness in him! especially when he smile! i feel like pinching him!! and when i talk about him i feel so excited and i basically blush! SO EMBARRASSING! But if only he will ask me for my number. but too bad. i guess I'm too fat! lol!! And Second joke of the day! we were at this MOZART room when 1 area the floors were filled with mirror. Nurul asked me to walk on it! and i did it! walking real careful and thinking what surprise was in store for me. I WAS REALLY CONCENTRATING! guess what? Nurul said oh i can see whatever u had beneath u! i screamed! i 4got that i was wearing a skirt and by walking on top of the mirror they can see what i have ! luckily i was wearing a FBT red shorts inside! haha or else I'll be dead! NAUGHTY NURUL! Anyway after the briefing, me, CY, Julee and don walk to MRT station And me and don don went to have our dinner IT was good! and we have free flow of ice cream and drinks! BUT! after eating the set! we were too full only eat 3 scoops of ice cream. so it's like wasting the free flow.. haha Thanks don don! he accompanied me to carefourr to buy some perfume and daiso to buy eyelashes! though it was tiring to day! BUT i really enjoy my day! wahaha
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
I forgot to blog yesterday
so i shall blog about it today then. Since today I'll be staying home the WHOLE DAY rotting :( OK.. Yesterday i went on a date out with KeVal.. lol not really a date but since he wants me back so yup.. He need to rush back to camp by 3.30 so we just eat and catch a movie. We had LJS Then after that we went for the movie which starts at 11.30 AWAKE. well it's not as nice as i thought it would be but it's definitely GROSS! they open up the heart and u get to see the organ still moving SHIT! that picture is still in my mind! DISGUSTING!!! So after the movie He went back home to prepare while i went to simei ite for the audition in GREASE Before that i called annie and asked her how to walk to the ite from simei MRT. And since she's going out I managed to see her OMG! I missed her so much!!! So after seeing her i proceeded to simei ite And i was so nervous when i went in but still i put on a bright smile and act as if i'm confident. Here's the dreadful part :( The "judge" asked me what song are u planning to sing. and i said I'm singing a Chinese song. she asked, can u sing an English song? But I'm not very good at English songs. However i still tried so i sang perhaps perhaps perhaps and i haven even sang half she asked me to stop -.- and sing Chinese instead. My Chinese part they were impressed with my high notes cos it was really strong (that's what they say) but my low notes i sort of juz sing it through like as if i don wanna sing it. LOL the pianist is right! So the teacher said that she is ok with me just that i need to work on my articulation. so yup. and after that we went dancing. audition it's upon 3 i think i get 1 1/2 lol!!! but there's 1 guy really cute! and he wishes me good luck! so fortunate! lol ok when i went back home! i received a sms saying that i got into the audition for GREASE!!! yay! so happy!!! haha that's all.. talk to u guys next time! tata
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
After School Chinn Yee, Julee, Farah, Don, Idruls
and ME went to J8 Our motive is to buy a gift for Ms Dorcas. Before that We went to J8 Then they eat and we sit there , rot, and take pictures!  don don and me   Julee and fara They never fail to make me laugh with the way they speak and act! *loves*  OMG!!! he's some 1 I 'admire' lol cos he's the cutest in class! wahaha.. And guess what? he fed me at LJS just now OMG i feel so blessed and happy WAHAHA! ok la shall stop this later he really thought i like him! lol Anyway after this we went to shop for ms dorcas gift and yup we got it from gift a name.. a bracelect! veri nice de!!! haha ok i shall stop here talk to you guys some other time tata! I took alot of pic all me! view and see the ATTRACTIVE AVIER! LOL!  heez!    Speak no evil  See no evil!  Licks!!!!  I'm a happy girl :)
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
2Day i will be writng two post
1 bad 1 and 1 good post and seeing from the title this is the bad 1! I just realized that I have been BACKSTABBED by a hypocrite! that i know less than 2 weeks can u guys imagine? it's only 1 week plus and she start backstabbing ppl! Cos we had this Ice breaker game if my name is Avier i have to find an Adjective that starts with a letter A to describe myself And i described myself ATTRACTIVE AVIER! so wtf is wrong with that? I am confident that i'm attractive is not really of ur business right? I may be fat but so what? I'm pretty and proud of myself that's all that matters so you guys know what she do? she take picture with me go around telling people she so fat still say herself attractive i am much more prettier then her. Take a look in the mirror I just lose to you because u are thin if i were to be skinnier things would be different. and besides you know what makes me even prettier then u? CONFIDENCE i don need to go around backstabbing ppl telling ppl i'm pretty. but u? pathetic.. I guess your boyfriend sticks with u juz to fuck u u noe why? a girl like you who don't even know how to love yourself by protecting yourself attracts wolves like your bf.. Guys sorry to be so crude. But hyprocrite like her i don't need to hold back my words If u are unhappy with me? or just plain jealous say it upfront to me don't be a fucking coward u bitch! OOPS u are not even suited to be a bitch because no 1 wanna fuck u except ur bf i guess.
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
I know that u have read my blog
and u are affected by what i say And LH, I apologised to you for that but girl, what i'm saying is helping u although there are some words there not to your liking but u juz have to accept the fact. If u do read my blog again I wanna tell u these. Do u know that we are trying to help u trying to be your friend? But u keep shutting us away. PLEASE! stop indulging in self pity! It's time to wake up and move on with life. You want others to be friend with u? to love u? The first thing is to love yourself. Because even YOU yourself don't Know how to love yourself what rights do you have to want other ppl to love you and be your friend. You may be thinking I don't understand how u feel but TRUST me! I DO! I may not have life harder den you or my life could be so much harder then u either way i am not sure But i Do not have a good life I indulge in self pity once in awhile. GOD is so unfair. OTHER people are born in rich family pretty, with love from family, blessed with many friends because if their good looks. Even if their character sucks they still have SOOO many friends and me? I am not in a complete family. I worked to earn own money I don't have a fantastic character. ALL my characters are built through hard lesson people don like me in the past because i was such a bad person. with bad temper and i was fat and ugly I treat every 1 like dirt because in my early childhood time no one taught me how to make friends what is right? what is wrong? I am like you i put ALL the blame on others. Because of them i become what i am I don't want to change. Because of this thinking. People hated me more because they think my character sucks. But even after i changed i was still outcast merely because of two guys BUT i have never given up you know? I still tried to change. i tried to see what is wrong with me because it always take two items to clap. I"ve changed not because of them you know? i change because i wanna lead a happier life. I always grumble and complained why god muz make me learn through hard lesson. BUT after grumbling i pulled myself up! and continued my journey. I wanna be happy! i don care what other said. they say i'm fat? i agree :) i smile and say:"ya i'm fat but i'm cute ." people asked me to slim down i say :"it's ok, other girls that are fat might not look pretty when they are fat but at least i look pretty." This is what i do to be confident to be happy. I hope u can try to think of a good thing about yourself. Remember! i don't have a pampered life but because of this! i cherish all the happy times i have! because of this i dare to say i am more matured than most of the people of my age! because i've grown stronger. I may look happy but that's because i chose to be happy like the rest! I noe u might think that i am sprouting nonsense. BUT i don't care what u think. i juz wanna help u! so wake up and move on! If u wanna help yourself. then first thing is don't put all the blame on others nor yourself. no use blaming anything. WORK for it! We will try to help u in anyways BUT first change your attitude and open yourself.
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Today long tiring day ...;
veri fun! cos lesson started le! wahaha!!! 2 day ms Petrina bought up something that caught my attention. PERCEPTION as a teacher. we CANNOT tell the children their view is wrong.. because there is no right or wrong. By doing so, we would be diminishing their self esteem and might lead them to not daring to voice out anymore. i agree with her totally i HATE it when i am sharing my view people come telling me no it's this. i mean it's juz my view what? right? so i always tend to shut them up with well different people have different view so i stick with my view. And i can see they will be unhappy with me. For that i apologise. but i really got no other ways to tell u i wanna stick with MY perception. at least it's better then me fighting back with u right? wahaha.. so people. don force me to look from ur perception and accept it cos it may backfire.. AND lesson learnt: i shouldn't tell other people they are wrong and force them to accept my point of views :) heard from don don he broken up with his gf.. sad for him but hurray! u got FREEDOM.. well... she lost composed of herself and too bad :) u juz made yourself look bad.. and losing people who loves u...
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
You know i think life is so contradicting.
People say that in life beauty is not everything most importantly is the heart but i don't agree at all.. In my class there's this girl. I won say her name but after i described her i think u guys know who i'm talking abt if u are in my class now.. anyway she is short hair wear specs and wore a very very long skirts most of the people in class doesn't like her because she says she don't like kids.. and sometimes when teacher asked her to present she appears to be shy and dilly dally! but i guessed the most impt factor is her looks! and her grooming.. she doesn't even look presentable... But u guys know she's very sad? I heard from her only friend that she don understand why people don like her when she does nth wrong.. i agreed with her she does nth wrong.. it's just that she was born not as pretty as other girls juz that she lack exposure. and so what she doesn't like kids? in school another girl doesn't like kids.. but no one seems to take notice of that.. Of course i am not trying to be a hero here but i jux feel for her.. because when i was in poly 2 of my class mate hated me hated me for being fat and yet wanting to dress up nicely hated me for asking question in class.. but i know all these are not the main reason the main reason is i am fat maybe they don't like FAT girls.. But if they get to know me maybe i'm not as bad as they thought? But they never give me a chance.. They made my life difficult! So i understand perfectly how she feels.. i hope that u guys can give her a chance to prove that she might not be as bad as we thought.. of course! the rest of the work is up to her if she doesn't blend in.. we can't help her.. but at least we gave her a chance right? so i sincerely hope u guys out there will give those who don't look good a chance to be ur friend.. u might gain a good friend.. no one knows what life would bring..
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
WAS TOLD TO
REMOVE THIS POST! I'M DOING THIS FOR DON. CAUSE I DON'T WANT HIM TO BE STUCK IN THE MIDDLE OF US! STOP PESTERING HIM! ANYTHING NOT HAPPY JUZ COME TO ME STRAIGHT
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Yawn! whole week had been such fulfilling that i'm so tired now!!!
ok nth much happened to day so i shall update u guys about what happened on Wednesday as i promised u guys i would! haha before that tell u something exciting.. haha went to eat with don don at LJS for lunch den we went to the open field at J8 saw yana fara and Nurul Ain!!! haha we were GOSSIPING! but not telling u about what *wink* and guess what? they say i'm pretty!!! wahaha so happy! i can feel myself flying up! LOL ok back to topics 16/8/04 anyway that day we have a talk.. was damn boring at first when it was conducted by the directors. BUT when the counselors start their talk I've learnt.. let me share with u guys yeah? to build up ur confidence, you have to learn to forgive and forget forgive: forgive yourself for making mistakes because human makes mistakes. forgive: forgive others for hurting you so we can put the bad memories behind us and move on forget: Forget all the rude and nasty remarks said by others and MOST IMPORTANTLY!!! NO ONE can put you down unless u let them. And after school that day. I went to sing at cash studio with don don and CY! had a great time and i took some photos :) SP_A0904.jpg) we were acting cute :p i look so unatural :( round face (*_*)   Took some photo of myself.. i look good in uniform :)
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Today happened many stuffs
howeveri too tired to talk abt it and too lazy upload photos.. so i shall talk abt it tml! tata
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
WHA!!!! 8.40 le!
very very late now.. see i sacrificed my dinner eat and blog at the same time? u guys touched? ok at first in school i dread school!!! because i don't like a girl-.- she like trying to want to do everything trying too hard to outshine this type of people are never my liking enough abt her.. BUT i LOVE my course! it's so cool! really what i wanna learn I'll be learning abt what children think by their movement so it's really very cool! and whenever i think of these i'm very happy! this sub is call Early childhood Development U noe i really wanna do well.. so i don't think i muz pon le muz every day go school! and cant be lazy le!!! 2 day was veri boring at first talks talks talks! oh btw my classroom is airconed! ok-.- back to topic... but the game was fun! so yup! not so bad!! BUT what's the greatest thing??? i have two friend whichhas some same frequency as me... 1 is don don.. we talk abt his fling (wahaha) the other want is CY!! we talk abt everything!!! i stayed back with her and bishan! and we like eat! walk! TALK!!! so cool la!!! but i cant be too happy yet! everytime things start well at first but end badly.. must not 4get the hard lesson learnt last year!!! ok la i have finished updating u guys le.. get back to my dinner now!!! *loves*
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
OK!!!!
Be honored People!!! Once i reached home i bath... and written 1 entry in my diary I immediately came to update my first day in ITE! how? steady right? haha AND now i am going to tell u something! the feeling of poly going to ITE sucks! It's like u always tend to make comparison between ITE and poly.. WORST thing is u don notice it until u blurted it all out and i'm quite afraid that my ITE friends will actually dislike me as i keep on bringing out poly stuff so i REALLY REALLY have to refrain! OK time for comparison! firstly i think ite have to work hard in their ice breaking game!!! cos it's not really an ice breaking game to me :( and u noe what!!! i miss air con room in ngee ann!! even orientation was held under lecture theatre!! ours!!! ARGH!! i had to sit under the scorching HOT sun!! IT's a torture! especially when i already had so much FATS!! BTW it's the first time i am in a class with more malays than chinese.. ok not being racist! but u know.. i am juz not used to it!! wahaha!! and food there totally CANT MAKE IT!!! i spend $3 on a plate of chicken rice.. the proportion is lesser den outside food!! argh!!! i missed good food in NGEE ANN!!!! HUMPH!!! BUT all these doesn't matter most importantly! i wanna find a friend there which i can click with! seriously! cos i see their pattern and mine pattern abit hard.. IT's quite surprising u noe? i see ITE ppl more guai den me! haha! ah bo is damn pai kia de! so yup.. i need a friend in ITE!! if don have click de quite sad sia.. ok la!! need to try hard in blending in with them! shouldn't keep complaining! Guess I'll stop here! UPdate u guys soon! MUACKZ!
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
OMG!!!!
The joke is not funny!!!! *heaved a sign of relief* DO U KNOW HOW WORRIED I WAS? WHOLE DAY THINKING WHAT I'VE DONE LEADING U TO HATE ME! HUMPH!!!! Next time pls don play such joke.. not fun! U MADE ME SAD WHOLE DAY!!! and don say u hate me for nth.. ok? lol i really veri sad and disappointed leh when i see ur msn.. luckily u replied.. though i didn't replied u but was busying watch deathnote! WAHAHA!!! hmmm... school's starting like tml? and i'm worried.. worried ppl start hating me again.. worried i cant take the life there. SIAN!!! muz wear uniform le... Really veri stress leh... HOPE I CAN SLEEP TONIGHT It's like having butterfiles in my stomach le.. argh!!!! and ONCE AGAIN don't tell me u hate me le.. i treasure friends!!! so any one out there.. as long as i treat u as close friend.. don't play such prank on me i'll be devastated!!! T.T
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
OMG!!!!
was abt to leave hse to find mum.. when i saw this msn msg.. it says: avier, recently i hate u more and more! ARGH when i saw this msg that person already went offline... Normally.. i don give a damn.. cos in life either u hate me or love me.. when u hate me. it's because i don like u that much either.. BUT this time it's diff.. IT's from a friend i treasure... a friend i trusted.. but oh well.. you're gonna make my whole day wondering what the fuck is wrong with me what the fuck did i do to make u hate me... but then again, every single mistake that friends do u will hate them.. so i don't know whether it's juz a normal dislike or u mean it when u say u hate me.. BUT rmb... i'm oso a human.. i make mistakes.. there are many times.. u have made mistakes but i chose to ignore and forget.. that's how friendship last... but if u're gonna hate me for some mistake and 4 get the goodness i had in me Then i guess i could only say I'm real disappointed.. in trusting u and thinking we were close... pls prove me wrong...
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
I shall not elaborate much about the outings.
I'll juz say what happen during the night.. simple.. we missed our bus and we decided to ton all night... there was me, KAZIO, YUME, TOSHIRO, and WOSHIBEN... OK so we were doing truth or dare. and aparrently TOSHIRO had to do a dare.. IT's quite a simple dare... He have to take off his pants show us his boxer.. And he did it... I'm sure many guys will think it's a chicken feed thing.. cos u guys do it at home rite? the only challenge is it's in public.. but there wasn't a single soul at 3 am? And i suggested it... so WOSHIBEN starts saying.. u ask him to do.. u shall have to take off ur pants and show ur panties.. i was like y?? it's impossible.. and some how change to show bra.. but it was stil difficult for me.. cos no matter how open i am. i am NOT comfortable showing my bra to any TOM DICK OR HARRY! Fuck it! i got the dare and i had to do it.. but i was trying to push it away.. and u noe what he said? so troublesome! I was like wtf! FINE i DID IT! and after i did it there isn't any encouraging words.. he juz say easy what..juz show ant.. that point i was like fuck off.. but nvm i bear with it.. it's a game i had to play along.. KAZIO's turn to suffer same fate as me.. she took a longer time.. they did say she is troublesome.. but after she done it WOSHIBEN were like u rock girl.. nvm i am fine with it.. i am not HIS close friend anyway and in some truth.. they found out i was not a virgin.. and whenever ppl ask abt truth.. abt whether had sex b4.. he kept saying not like some 1 had so many BF before.. even do before SO INDECENT... AND he repeated many times!!! THE PROB IS SO WHAT I AM NOT A VIRGIN? THAT DOESN'T MEAN I GO AROUND TO BEHAVE LIKE A SLUT I JUZ MAKE LOVE WITH MY EX COS I WANTED TO GIVE IT TO HIM WHAT'S FUCKING WRONG WITH THAT? ANY1 WHO FUCKS BEFORE IS CALLED INDECENT? THEN WHY SO MANY GIRLS WANTS HAVE PREMARITAL SEX? TO BE LABELLED AS INDECENT? EVEN IF HE DOESN'T MEANT IT. HE SHOULDN'T SAY THINGS LIKE THAT! COS HE SHOULD HAVE HIS LIMIT! and he was saying like girls muz take off pants next... den kazio was like are u mad? den he's like muz what we take pants off u oso muz what.. WOSHIBEN: relax i'm not going at u it's her.. so i'm being targeted in a game.. how good??? THE funny thing is after 1 dare 1 start to feel veri veri angry.. and blood rushes in and tears welling up! and i shouted at him.. and GUESS WHAT??? he said he didn't said those thing?? TURNS OUT HE"S A HUMJI.. DON"T EVEN DARE TO ADMIT WHAT HE HAD SAID. I DON'T NEED HIM TO APOLOGISE.. BUT HE NEEDS TO ADMIT WHAT HE HAD SAID.. AND HE DON'T EVEN WANNA TALK THINGS OUT HE'S CHILDISH OR JUZ PLAIN COWARD? DON WANT TO SOLVE PROB.. WANNA TRY AND ACT FIERCE AND STUFF ONLY if u dare to say all that.. jolly well admit it.. it takes two hands to clap.. i might have done something to piss u off but know ur fucking limits.. don put blame on me by saying.. ppl got limits don show me attitude.. THINK ! if u want me to have limit den why are u saying hurtful things like she's INDECENT! KNOW ur limits!!!! AT LEAST I CAN ANSWER TO MY HEART AND CONSCIENCE THAT WHATEVER I SAID I HAVE ADMIT IT! I MIGHT BE WRONG TO FLARE.. bUT IF U HAVE NO FAULT AT ALL WHY SHOULD I EVEN FLARE? Here i am not trying to see who is right or wrong.. but if he's going to say that i am those ppl who cant take joke.. den this post is to let u know what exactly happened.. and that the joke is too much.. KAZIO AND TOSHIRO AND YUME IS THERE so ask them.. of cos if they can betray their conscience and said NO ben neva did that at all.. i really got nth to say.. but as long as i am able to answer what i've said i don't give a fuck abt what u guys think.. i juz want to clarify...! p.s sry ppl for too much usage of vulgarities.. but i'm damn pissed and angry now.. and sorry kazio yume and toshiro.. sorry to put u guys in a spot.. but KAZIO.. u noe why i cant stand these things so i need to clarify.. so sry..
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Hmmm...
Special Thanks to jiayi!!! Special Thanks to Mei har!!! They both make my day veri enjoyable today.. I was frustrated as u guys noe why (if not view prev post) And i Msn Jia yi On the 5/4/08 AVIER: Jia yi u free tml Jia yi: Why?Avier: i feel fustrated go read my blog.. After 5 mins Jia Yi : relationship again (-_- what again oso not i want de) Avier: ya lor so how free to sing K tml? Jia Yi: ok lor Avier: Ask 1 more person to come along den we can go cash studio Jia Yi: Mei Har ba... Avier: Sure :) 6/4/08 We Booked the place at 1.30pm decided to meet at 11.30 ( made it early as late is our habit) When i was rushing to get out after my make up routine because it was already 11.20 That's when i received a sms from jiayi telling me he juz woke up -__- So i guessed mei har is going to be late as well.. I took my time.. browsing internet and stuff then i left house at 11 plus going 12 guess what happen next? Mei har msg me.. i was thinking! SHIT!!! she reached le.. but i heaved a sigh of relief cos she said she will be late.. In the train.. Mei har called and say she can only reach around 1 plus fine with me.. as long as she is here.. so me and jia yi went to eat sakae.. YUMMY!!! then met Mei har outside forum and went in to sing k.. (Jia yi refers that as singing theraphy to make my mood better) HAHA!!! the singing helps alot!! That harhar!!! know what she did?? by the end of session.. we had 11 pages of unsang songs.. and 10 pages was hers -___-"| After that we headed to Jia yi hse.. and guess what?? his mum cooked us pasta!! yummy!!! I LOVE jia yi's mother food.. Though to me it's salty! cos i never had liking for salty food but her food, it's tasty!!! Tell u GUYS some funny joke :) B4 me and meihar was about to go home.. Jiayi and I were talking about tentacles.. I was saying it is cool to have so many hands arousing u.. IF ONLY MAN has 6 hands.. WHOA!!!! SEX TIME, woman will feel great.. SUDDENLY meihar said : "I SAW BEFORE!!!" In our heart we were thinking? she saw man with 6 hands?? Guess what she said?? I saw ppl with 6 fingers u noe!! thumb there extra 1 finger.. LOL WE couldn't stop laughing!!! and she still beat us for laughing at her!!! we were expecting some thing shocking and yeah that's shocking enough.. shocking enough to know she was this off.. HAHA!!! but nonetheless we still love her!!! cos she made us laugh!! really had a great day today.. It make me 4 get temporaily abt the 2 guys.. haha.. there's nth much to think abt but rarely 2 ppl woo me at the same time so find abit pity!!! haha!!! would be meeting mich tml!! OMG so long haven seen her i MUST HAVE missed alot of juicy gossips.. guess I'll stop here!!! *loves*
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
ok.. Recently I'm confused..
over r/s stuffs.. OK.. I'll start with some overview stuff first.. There's two guys after me currently. first 1 we'll call him LOST second 1 we'll call him ALPHA LOST had been after me for quite sometime.. But we only met each other recently la.. And i have to say.. I like your attention.. I like it when you hold me during rainy days in case i fall.. And importantly I like it whenever you talked to a girl you will tell me who is that girl and stuffs It gives me a sense of secure.. However.. I hate it when you hold me too much I hate it when u insisted what u want even after i say no.. u know that if u insist u will get ur way cos it's my weakness and u use it on me i don't like that.. cos i feel that u dun gif me enough respect Now about ALPHA he's only been after me recently.. I like you for being a gentlemen. treating me stuff and such.. though i return u the money. but i like it when u do that... It's sweet.. I like you when u respect me.. However.. I hate it when u cant even answer simple question to whether u are serious in me or as a fling I hate it whenever u dun want to ans my call or talk to me u off ur mobile.. Maybe u had ur reason BUT i don't care.. Compare the two of them ALPHA is good looking.. and he offers to pay for everything.. Of course. i dun believe guy SHOULD pay for everything but at LEAST he has to offer.. because it shows some sweetness.. and i agree i waiver because he's good looking stand a higher chance.. BUT looks isn't everything.. the fact that he even needs to think whether he is serious with me turns everything off.. I don't ask much i don't need promises. i don't need him to love me forever. i juz need an assurance.. to tell me he's serious in me.. LOST loses at looks.. But the thing is he can give me assurance.. through his actions.. he may be acting it out or whatever.. but i don't care.. i FEEL it.. that's important.. BUT i don't know.. I always feel he doesn't give me enough respect.. it freaked me out.. he's abit touchy (not purposely touched ur breast or what juz touchy hope u all noe what i meant) that freaked me out oso.. AND the thing is when i told him there's a competitor he juz told me if u are meant to be mine u will be mine.. but i dun need u to tell me big talks cos i think i can do better.. LOL i need u to feel jealous not act nonchanlant.. I am a girl i need what a girl wants when u said that. It just shows to me you don care.. I have been feeling fustrated.. But now i noe who i want to choose.. I rather give up both.. Than picking some 1 that is wrong.. because i WANT a serious r/s.. of course i am telling u guys here.. so if u all still wanna go after me i'm fine :) but if u all think i am too picky and u wanna give me up it's fine too :) BUT every girl got their expectation.. i am jus stating mine.. I don't need u to be rich and VERI good looking.. i just need u to have the right attitude towards how u treat me :) I don't want to live in regret and end up both party. ME an YOU getting hurt so yup.. I'll stop here.. continue or give up it's up to u guys.. I'm going to take a bath le.. TATA~
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
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