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I'm falling sick soon!!!!!
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 at 4/29/2008 10:09:00 PM

ARGH!!! help me!!!
I'm having a bad sore throat.
And I lost my voice!
wa!!! sad!

OK I'm so tired
after a day full of activities!
Well, not really activities but nonetheless
it's still a very long day!

First we have our lesson as usual!
let me tell u the first joke of the day.
After ms Ching Ching lesson
we were going for our break when i asked :
"CHER, do u notice any difference in me today."
Ching: u changed your eyelashes to a shorter ones?
ME: not really, actually I tied up my hair today
but i 4got u seen it yesterday.
Ching: OIC, btw u look nicer with lesser makeup.
just then my shirt button slipped open
Ching: hey i think u need a push button
i can see ur red BRA.
ME SHRUG.
"what to do? I have big breast! LOL"
And she basically whacked me!


So off i went to lunch.
After school we went to
national museum for briefing for our volunteering work,
for the children season.
And guess what!
There's this guy!
he's damn cute!!!
Well he isn't handsome!
in fact he's a little geeky!
but he have some cuteness in him! especially when he smile!
i feel like pinching him!!
and when i talk about him
i feel so excited and i basically blush!


SO EMBARRASSING!
But if only he will ask me for my number.
but too bad. i guess I'm too fat! lol!!
And Second joke of the day!
we were at this MOZART room
when 1 area the floors were filled with mirror.
Nurul asked me to walk on it!
and i did it!
walking real careful
and thinking what surprise was in store for me.
I WAS REALLY CONCENTRATING!
guess what?
Nurul said oh i can see whatever u had beneath u!
i screamed!
i 4got that i was wearing a skirt and
by walking on top of the mirror they can see what i have !
luckily i was wearing a FBT red shorts inside!
haha
or else I'll be dead!
NAUGHTY NURUL!


Anyway after the briefing,
me, CY, Julee and don walk to MRT station
And me and don don went to have our dinner
IT was good!
and we have free flow of ice cream and drinks!
BUT!
after eating the set! we were too full
only eat 3 scoops of ice cream.
so it's like wasting the free flow..
haha


Thanks don don!
he accompanied me to carefourr
to buy some perfume
and daiso to buy eyelashes!
though it was tiring to day!
BUT i really enjoy my day!
wahaha






Life is a song and I'll play for you.


Updates on 26 April
Sunday, April 27, 2008 at 4/27/2008 11:45:00 AM

I forgot to blog yesterday
so i shall blog about it today then.
Since today I'll be staying home the
WHOLE DAY
rotting :(


OK..
Yesterday i went on a date
out with KeVal..
lol
not really a date but since he wants me back
so yup..
He need to rush back to camp by 3.30
so we just eat and catch a movie.


We had LJS
Then after that we went for the movie
which starts at 11.30
AWAKE.
well it's not as nice as i thought
it would be
but it's definitely GROSS!
they open up the heart
and u get to see the organ still moving
SHIT!
that picture is still in my mind!
DISGUSTING!!!

So after the movie
He went back home to prepare
while i went to simei ite
for the audition in GREASE
Before that i called annie and asked her
how to walk to the ite from
simei MRT.
And since she's going out
I managed to see her
OMG! I missed her so much!!!


So after seeing her i proceeded to simei ite
And i was so nervous when i went in
but still i put on a bright smile
and act as if i'm confident.
Here's the dreadful part :(

The "judge" asked me
what song are u planning to sing.
and i said I'm singing a Chinese song.
she asked, can u sing an English song?
But I'm not very good at English songs.
However i still tried
so i sang perhaps perhaps perhaps
and i haven even sang half she asked me to stop
-.-
and sing Chinese instead.
My Chinese part they were impressed with my high notes
cos it was really strong (that's what they say)
but my low notes i sort of juz sing it through
like as if i don wanna sing it.
LOL
the pianist is right!


So the teacher said that
she is ok with me
just that i need to work on my articulation.
so yup.

and after that we went dancing.
audition
it's upon 3
i think i get 1 1/2
lol!!!
but there's 1 guy really cute!
and he wishes me good luck!
so fortunate!
lol


ok when i went back home!
i received a sms saying that
i got into the audition for GREASE!!!
yay! so happy!!!
haha
that's all..

talk to u guys next time!
tata





Life is a song and I'll play for you.


pt 2
Thursday, April 24, 2008 at 4/24/2008 08:39:00 PM

After School
Chinn Yee, Julee, Farah, Don, Idruls
and ME
went to J8
Our motive is to buy a gift for Ms Dorcas.

Before that We went to J8
Then they eat
and we sit there , rot, and take pictures!


don don and me




Julee and fara
They never fail to make me laugh with
the way they speak and act!
*loves*



OMG!!! he's some 1 I 'admire'
lol cos he's the cutest in class!
wahaha..

And guess what?
he fed me at LJS just now
OMG i feel so blessed and happy
WAHAHA!
ok la shall stop this
later he really thought i like him!
lol

Anyway after this
we went to shop for ms dorcas gift
and yup we got it from gift a name..
a bracelect!
veri nice de!!!
haha

ok i shall stop here
talk to you guys some other time
tata!

I took alot of pic all me! view and
see the ATTRACTIVE AVIER!
LOL!


heez!







Speak no evil



See no evil!



Licks!!!!



I'm a happy girl :)

Life is a song and I'll play for you.


Evonne is a Hypocrite!
at 4/24/2008 08:24:00 PM

2Day i will be writng two post
1 bad 1
and 1 good post
and seeing from the title
this is the bad 1!

I just realized that I have
been BACKSTABBED
by a hypocrite!
that i know less than 2 weeks
can u guys imagine?
it's only 1 week plus and she start backstabbing ppl!

Cos we had this Ice breaker game
if my name is Avier
i have to find an Adjective that starts with
a letter A
to describe myself
And i described myself
ATTRACTIVE AVIER!

so wtf is wrong with that?
I am confident that i'm attractive
is not really of ur business right?
I may be fat
but so what?
I'm pretty and proud of myself
that's all that matters


so you guys know what she do?
she take picture with me
go around telling people
she so fat still say herself attractive
i am much more prettier then her.

Take a look in the mirror
I just lose to you because u are thin
if i were to be skinnier
things would be different.
and besides
you know what makes me even prettier then u?
CONFIDENCE
i don need to go around
backstabbing ppl
telling ppl i'm pretty.
but u?
pathetic..

I guess your boyfriend sticks with u
juz to fuck u
u noe why?
a girl like you
who don't even know how to
love yourself by protecting yourself
attracts wolves like your bf..


Guys sorry to be so crude.
But hyprocrite like her
i don't need to hold back my words


If u are unhappy with me?
or just plain jealous
say it upfront to me
don't be a fucking coward
u bitch!
OOPS u are not even suited to be a bitch
because no 1 wanna fuck u
except ur bf i guess.


Life is a song and I'll play for you.


I Apologised if I said something to make u misunderstand.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008 at 4/23/2008 08:11:00 PM

I know that u have read my blog
and u are affected by what i say
And LH, I apologised to you for that
but girl, what i'm saying is helping u
although there are some words there not
to your liking but u juz have to
accept the fact.
If u do read my blog again
I wanna tell u these.


Do u know that we are trying to help u
trying to be your friend?
But u keep shutting us away.
PLEASE!
stop indulging in self pity!
It's time to wake up and
move on with life.

You want others to be friend with u?
to love u?
The first thing is to love yourself.
Because even YOU yourself don't
Know how to love yourself
what rights do you have to
want other ppl to love you and be your friend.


You may be thinking
I don't understand how u feel
but TRUST me!
I DO!
I may not have life harder den you
or my life could be so much harder then u
either way i am not sure
But i Do not have a good life


I indulge in self pity once in awhile.
GOD is so unfair.
OTHER people are born in rich family
pretty, with love from family,
blessed with many friends because if their
good looks.
Even if their character sucks
they still have SOOO many friends


and me?
I am not in a complete family.
I worked to earn own money
I don't have a fantastic character.
ALL my characters are built through hard lesson
people don like me in the past
because i was such a bad person.
with bad temper
and i was fat and ugly
I treat every 1 like dirt
because in my early childhood time
no one taught me how to make friends
what is right?
what is wrong?


I am like you
i put ALL the blame on others.
Because of them
i become what i am
I don't want to change.


Because of this thinking.
People hated me more because they think
my character sucks.
But even after i changed
i was still outcast merely because of two guys
BUT i have never given up you know?
I still tried to change.
i tried to see what is wrong with me
because it always take two items to clap.
I"ve changed not because of them you know?
i change because i wanna
lead a happier life.


I always grumble and complained
why god muz make me learn through hard lesson.
BUT after grumbling
i pulled myself up!
and continued my journey.
I wanna be happy!
i don care what other said.
they say i'm fat?
i agree :)
i smile and say:"ya i'm fat but i'm cute ."
people asked me to slim down
i say :"it's ok, other girls that are fat might not look pretty
when they are fat but at least i look pretty."
This is what i do to be confident
to be happy.



I hope u can try to think of a good thing about yourself.
Remember! i don't have a pampered life
but because of this!
i cherish all the happy times i have!
because of this i dare to say
i am more matured than most of the
people of my age!
because i've grown stronger.
I may look happy
but that's because i chose to be happy
like the rest!


I noe u might think that i am sprouting nonsense.
BUT i don't care what u think.
i juz wanna help u!
so wake up
and move on!
If u wanna help yourself.
then first thing is
don't put all the blame on others nor yourself.

no use blaming anything.
WORK for it!

We will try to help u in anyways
BUT first change your attitude and open yourself.


Life is a song and I'll play for you.


PERCEPTION
Tuesday, April 22, 2008 at 4/22/2008 10:51:00 PM

Today long tiring day ...;
veri fun!
cos lesson started le!
wahaha!!!
2 day ms Petrina bought up something
that caught my attention.


PERCEPTION
as a teacher.
we CANNOT tell the children
their view is wrong..
because there is no right or wrong.
By doing so, we would be diminishing their
self esteem and might lead them
to not daring to voice out anymore.


i agree with her totally
i HATE it when i am sharing my view
people come telling me
no it's this.
i mean it's juz my view what?
right?
so i always tend to shut them up with
well different people have
different view so i stick with my view.


And i can see they will be unhappy with me.
For that i apologise.
but i really got no other ways to tell u
i wanna stick with MY perception.
at least it's better then me
fighting back with u right?
wahaha..
so people.
don force me to look from ur perception
and accept it
cos it may backfire..

AND lesson learnt: i shouldn't tell other people
they are wrong and force them to
accept my point of views :)


heard from don don
he broken up with his gf..
sad for him
but hurray!
u got FREEDOM..
well...
she lost composed of herself and
too bad :)
u juz made yourself look bad..
and losing people who loves u...


Life is a song and I'll play for you.


Looks is so so impt!
Sunday, April 20, 2008 at 4/20/2008 12:27:00 PM

You know i think life is so contradicting.
People say that in life
beauty is not everything
most importantly is the heart
but i don't agree at all..

In my class there's this girl.
I won say her name
but after i described her i think
u guys know who i'm talking abt if u are in
my class now..


anyway she is short hair
wear specs
and wore a very very long skirts
most of the people in class
doesn't like her because she says she
don't like kids..
and sometimes when teacher asked her to
present she appears to be shy and dilly dally!
but i guessed the most impt factor is her looks!
and her grooming..
she doesn't even look presentable...


But u guys know she's very sad?
I heard from her only friend that
she don understand why people don like her
when she does nth wrong..
i agreed with her
she does nth wrong..
it's just that she was born not as pretty as other girls
juz that she lack exposure.
and so what she doesn't like kids?
in school another girl doesn't like kids..
but no one seems to take notice of that..


Of course i am not trying to be a hero here
but i jux feel for her..
because when i was in poly
2 of my class mate hated me
hated me for being fat and yet wanting to dress up nicely
hated me for asking question in class..
but i know all these are not the main reason
the main reason is i am fat
maybe they don't like FAT girls..
But if they get to know me
maybe i'm not as bad as they thought?
But they never give me a chance..
They made my life difficult!


So i understand perfectly how she feels..
i hope that u guys can give her a chance
to prove that she might not be as bad as we thought..
of course! the rest of the work is up to her
if she doesn't blend in..
we can't help her..
but at least we gave her a chance right?


so i sincerely hope u guys out there will
give those who don't look good a chance
to be ur friend..
u might gain a good friend..
no one knows what life would bring..

Life is a song and I'll play for you.


I'm pissed with over possesive girls
Saturday, April 19, 2008 at 4/19/2008 11:18:00 PM

WAS TOLD TO

REMOVE THIS

POST!


I'M DOING THIS FOR DON.

CAUSE I DON'T WANT
HIM TO BE


STUCK IN THE MIDDLE OF US!

STOP PESTERING HIM!

ANYTHING NOT HAPPY JUZ COME
TO ME STRAIGHT

Life is a song and I'll play for you.


Happenings on 16/4/08
Friday, April 18, 2008 at 4/18/2008 11:04:00 PM



Yawn! whole week had been such fulfilling
that i'm so tired now!!!
ok nth much happened to day so
i shall update u guys about what
happened on Wednesday
as i promised u guys i would!
haha before that tell u something exciting..
haha
went to eat with don don at LJS for lunch
den we went to the open field at J8
saw yana fara and Nurul Ain!!!
haha we were GOSSIPING!
but not telling u about what *wink*
and guess what?
they say i'm pretty!!!
wahaha so happy!
i can feel myself flying up!
LOL
ok back to topics

16/8/04

anyway that day we have a talk..
was damn boring at first
when it was conducted by the directors.
BUT when the counselors
start their talk
I've learnt..
let me share with u guys yeah?

to build up ur confidence,
you have to learn to forgive and forget

forgive: forgive yourself for making mistakes because human
makes mistakes.
forgive: forgive others for hurting you so we can put the bad memories
behind us and move on
forget: Forget all the rude and nasty remarks said by others
and MOST IMPORTANTLY!!!
NO ONE can put you down unless u let them.


And after school that day.
I went to sing at cash studio with don don and CY!
had a great time and i took some photos :)





we were acting cute :p


i look so unatural :(


round face (*_*)




Took some photo of myself.. i look good in uniform :)

Life is a song and I'll play for you.


too tired to blog
Wednesday, April 16, 2008 at 4/16/2008 10:45:00 PM

Today happened many stuffs
howeveri too tired to talk abt it
and too lazy upload photos..
so i shall talk abt it tml!

tata

Life is a song and I'll play for you.


WHOA!!! unexpected turn of event...
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 at 4/15/2008 08:39:00 PM

WHA!!!! 8.40 le!
very very late now..
see i sacrificed my dinner eat and blog
at the same time?
u guys touched?

ok at first in school i dread school!!!
because i don't like a girl-.-
she like trying to want to do everything
trying too hard to outshine
this type of people are never my liking
enough abt her..


BUT i LOVE my course!
it's so cool!
really what i wanna learn
I'll be learning abt what children think
by their movement
so it's really very cool!
and whenever i think of these
i'm very happy!
this sub is call Early childhood Development


U noe i really wanna do well..
so i don't think i muz pon le
muz every day go school!
and cant be lazy le!!!


2 day was veri boring at first
talks talks talks!
oh btw my classroom is airconed!
ok-.-
back to topic...
but the game was fun!
so yup! not so bad!!

BUT what's the greatest thing???
i have two friend whichhas
some same frequency as me...
1 is don don..
we talk abt his fling (wahaha)
the other want is CY!!
we talk abt everything!!!

i stayed back with her and bishan!
and we like eat!
walk!
TALK!!!
so cool la!!!

but i cant be too happy yet!
everytime things start well at first
but end badly..
must not 4get the hard lesson learnt last year!!!
ok la i have finished updating u guys le..
get back to my dinner now!!!

*loves*


Life is a song and I'll play for you.


HOT DAY!!!!
Monday, April 14, 2008 at 4/14/2008 04:06:00 PM

OK!!!!
Be honored People!!!
Once i reached home
i bath...
and written 1 entry in my diary
I immediately came to update my first day in ITE!
how?
steady right?
haha


AND now i am going to tell u something!
the feeling of poly going to ITE sucks!
It's like u always tend to make comparison between
ITE and poly..
WORST thing is u don notice it until u blurted it all out
and i'm quite afraid that my ITE friends
will actually dislike me
as i keep on bringing out poly stuff
so i REALLY REALLY have to refrain!


OK time for comparison!
firstly i think ite have to work hard in their
ice breaking game!!!
cos it's not really an ice breaking game to me :(
and u noe what!!!
i miss air con room in ngee ann!!
even orientation was held under lecture theatre!!
ours!!! ARGH!!
i had to sit under the scorching HOT sun!!
IT's a torture!
especially when i already had so much FATS!!


BTW it's the first time i am in a class
with more malays than chinese..
ok not being racist!
but u know..
i am juz not used to it!!
wahaha!!


and food there totally CANT MAKE IT!!!
i spend $3 on a plate of chicken rice..
the proportion is lesser den outside food!!
argh!!!
i missed good food in NGEE ANN!!!!


HUMPH!!!
BUT all these doesn't matter
most importantly!
i wanna find a friend there which i can click with!
seriously!
cos i see their pattern and mine pattern abit hard..
IT's quite surprising u noe?
i see ITE ppl more guai den me!
haha!
ah bo is damn pai kia de!
so yup..
i need a friend in ITE!!
if don have click de quite sad sia..
ok la!! need to try hard in blending in with them!
shouldn't keep complaining!
Guess I'll stop here!


UPdate u guys soon!
MUACKZ!


Life is a song and I'll play for you.


*heaved a sigh of realief*
Sunday, April 13, 2008 at 4/13/2008 11:13:00 PM

OMG!!!!
The joke is not funny!!!!
*heaved a sign of relief*
DO U KNOW HOW WORRIED I WAS?
WHOLE DAY THINKING WHAT I'VE DONE
LEADING U TO HATE ME!
HUMPH!!!!

Next time pls don play such joke..
not fun!
U MADE ME SAD WHOLE DAY!!!
and don say u hate me for nth..
ok?

lol
i really veri sad and disappointed leh
when i see ur msn..
luckily u replied..
though i didn't replied u but was busying watch deathnote!
WAHAHA!!!


hmmm...
school's starting like tml?
and i'm worried..
worried ppl start hating me again..
worried i cant take the life there.
SIAN!!! muz wear uniform le...
Really veri stress leh...
HOPE I CAN SLEEP TONIGHT
It's like having butterfiles in my stomach le..
argh!!!!

and ONCE AGAIN
don't tell me u hate me le..
i treasure friends!!!
so any one out there..
as long as i treat u as close friend..
don't play such prank on me
i'll be devastated!!! T.T

Life is a song and I'll play for you.


mind's on whirling state...
at 4/13/2008 10:53:00 AM

OMG!!!!
was abt to leave hse to find mum..
when i saw this
msn msg..
it says: avier, recently i hate u more and more! ARGH
when i saw this msg that person already went offline...

Normally..
i don give a damn..
cos in life either u hate me or love me..
when u hate me. it's because i don like u that much either..
BUT this time it's diff..
IT's from a friend i treasure...
a friend i trusted..
but oh well..

you're gonna make my whole day
wondering what the fuck is wrong with me
what the fuck did i do to make u hate me...
but then again,
every single mistake
that friends do
u will hate them..
so i don't know whether it's juz a normal dislike
or u mean it when u say u hate me..

BUT rmb...
i'm oso a human..
i make mistakes..
there are many times..
u have made mistakes
but i chose to ignore and forget..
that's how friendship last...
but if u're gonna hate me
for some mistake
and 4 get the goodness i had in me

Then i guess i could only say
I'm real disappointed..
in trusting u and thinking we were close...

pls prove me wrong...

Life is a song and I'll play for you.


FUCK IT! worst day i had this year!
Thursday, April 10, 2008 at 4/10/2008 10:07:00 AM

I shall not elaborate much about the outings.
I'll juz say what happen during the night..
simple..
we missed our bus
and we decided to ton all night...
there was me, KAZIO, YUME, TOSHIRO, and WOSHIBEN...


OK so we were doing truth or dare.
and aparrently TOSHIRO had to do a dare..
IT's quite a simple dare...
He have to take off his pants
show us his boxer..
And he did it...
I'm sure many guys will think it's a chicken feed thing..
cos u guys do it at home rite?
the only challenge is it's in public..
but there wasn't a single soul at 3 am?


And i suggested it...
so WOSHIBEN starts saying..
u ask him to do..
u shall have to take off ur pants and show ur panties..
i was like y??
it's impossible..
and some how change to show bra..
but it was stil difficult for me..
cos no matter how open i am.
i am NOT comfortable showing my bra to any TOM DICK OR HARRY!


Fuck it!
i got the dare and i had to do it..
but i was trying to push it away..
and u noe what he said?
so troublesome!
I was like wtf!
FINE i DID IT!
and after i did it there isn't any encouraging words..
he juz say easy what..juz show ant..
that point i was like fuck off..
but nvm i bear with it..
it's a game i had to play along..



KAZIO's turn to suffer same fate as me..
she took a longer time..
they did say she is troublesome..
but after she done it WOSHIBEN were like u rock girl..
nvm i am fine with it..
i am not HIS close friend anyway
and in some truth..
they found out i was not a virgin..


and whenever ppl ask abt truth..
abt whether had sex b4..
he kept saying not like some 1
had so many BF before..
even do before
SO INDECENT...
AND he repeated many times!!!




THE PROB IS SO WHAT I AM NOT A VIRGIN?
THAT DOESN'T MEAN I GO AROUND TO BEHAVE LIKE A SLUT
I JUZ MAKE LOVE WITH MY EX COS I WANTED TO GIVE IT TO HIM
WHAT'S FUCKING WRONG WITH THAT?
ANY1 WHO FUCKS BEFORE IS CALLED INDECENT?
THEN WHY SO MANY GIRLS WANTS HAVE PREMARITAL SEX?
TO BE LABELLED AS INDECENT?
EVEN IF HE DOESN'T MEANT IT.
HE SHOULDN'T SAY THINGS LIKE THAT!
COS HE SHOULD HAVE HIS LIMIT!


and he was saying like girls muz take off pants next...
den kazio was like are u mad?
den he's like muz what we take pants off u oso muz what..
WOSHIBEN: relax i'm not going at u
it's her..


so i'm being targeted in a game..
how good???
THE funny thing is after 1 dare
1 start to feel veri veri angry..
and blood rushes in and tears welling up!
and i shouted at him..
and GUESS WHAT???
he said he didn't said those thing??
TURNS OUT HE"S A HUMJI..
DON"T EVEN DARE TO ADMIT WHAT HE HAD SAID.
I DON'T NEED HIM TO APOLOGISE..
BUT HE NEEDS TO ADMIT WHAT HE HAD SAID..
AND HE DON'T EVEN WANNA TALK THINGS OUT
HE'S CHILDISH OR JUZ PLAIN COWARD?
DON WANT TO SOLVE PROB..
WANNA TRY AND ACT FIERCE AND STUFF ONLY


if u dare to say all that..
jolly well admit it..
it takes two hands to clap..
i might have done something to piss u off
but know ur fucking limits..
don put blame on me by saying..
ppl got limits don show me attitude..
THINK ! if u want me to have limit
den why are u saying hurtful things
like she's INDECENT!
KNOW ur limits!!!!


AT LEAST I CAN ANSWER TO MY HEART AND CONSCIENCE THAT
WHATEVER I SAID
I HAVE ADMIT IT!
I MIGHT BE WRONG TO FLARE..
bUT IF U HAVE NO FAULT AT ALL
WHY SHOULD I EVEN FLARE?


Here i am not trying to see who is right or wrong..
but if he's going to say that i am
those ppl who cant take joke..
den this post is to let u know what exactly happened..
and that the joke is too much..
KAZIO AND TOSHIRO AND YUME IS THERE
so ask them..
of cos if they can betray their conscience and said
NO ben neva did that at all..
i really got nth to say..
but as long as i am able to answer what i've said
i don't give a fuck abt what u guys think..

i juz want to clarify...!

p.s sry ppl for too much usage of vulgarities..
but i'm damn pissed and angry now..
and sorry kazio yume and toshiro..
sorry to put u guys in a spot..
but KAZIO..
u noe why i cant stand these things so i need to clarify..
so sry..



Life is a song and I'll play for you.


WHOA!!!! had great fun today!!!
Monday, April 7, 2008 at 4/07/2008 01:41:00 AM

Hmmm...
Special Thanks to jiayi!!!
Special Thanks to Mei har!!!
They both make my day veri enjoyable today..


I was frustrated as u guys noe why (if not view prev post)
And i Msn Jia yi

On the 5/4/08


AVIER: Jia yi u free tml Jia yi: Why?
Avier: i feel fustrated go read my blog..


After 5 mins



Jia Yi : relationship again (-_- what again oso not i want de)
Avier: ya lor so how free to sing K tml?
Jia Yi: ok lor
Avier: Ask 1 more person to come along
den we can go cash studio
Jia Yi: Mei Har ba...
Avier: Sure :)

6/4/08



We Booked the place at 1.30pm
decided to meet at 11.30 ( made it early as late is our habit)
When i was rushing to get out
after my make up routine because it was already 11.20
That's when i received a sms from jiayi
telling me he juz woke up -__-


So i guessed mei har is going to be late as well..
I took my time..
browsing internet and stuff
then i left house at 11 plus going 12
guess what happen next?

Mei har msg me..
i was thinking! SHIT!!!
she reached le..
but i heaved a sigh of relief
cos she said she will be late..

In the train..
Mei har called and say she can only reach
around 1 plus
fine with me..
as long as she is here..


so me and jia yi went to eat sakae..
YUMMY!!!
then met Mei har outside forum
and went in to sing k..
(Jia yi refers that as singing theraphy to make my mood better)
HAHA!!!
the singing helps alot!!


That harhar!!!
know what she did??
by the end of session..
we had 11 pages of unsang songs..
and 10 pages was hers
-___-"|


After that we headed to Jia yi hse..
and guess what??
his mum cooked us pasta!!
yummy!!!
I LOVE jia yi's mother food..
Though to me it's salty!
cos i never had liking for salty food
but her food, it's tasty!!!


Tell u GUYS some funny joke :)
B4 me and meihar was about to go home..
Jiayi and I were talking about tentacles..
I was saying it is cool to have so many
hands arousing u..
IF ONLY MAN has 6 hands..
WHOA!!!! SEX TIME, woman will feel great..
SUDDENLY meihar said : "I SAW BEFORE!!!"
In our heart we were thinking?
she saw man with 6 hands??


Guess what she said??
I saw ppl with 6 fingers u noe!!
thumb there extra 1 finger..
LOL
WE couldn't stop laughing!!!
and she still beat us for
laughing at her!!!
we were expecting some thing shocking and
yeah that's shocking enough..
shocking enough to know she was this off..

HAHA!!!
but nonetheless
we still love her!!!
cos she made us laugh!!


really had a great day today..
It make me 4 get temporaily abt the 2 guys..
haha.. there's nth much to think abt
but rarely 2 ppl woo me at the same time
so find abit pity!!! haha!!!
would be meeting mich tml!!
OMG so long haven seen her
i MUST HAVE missed alot of juicy gossips..
guess I'll stop here!!!

*loves*








Life is a song and I'll play for you.


my decision
Saturday, April 5, 2008 at 4/05/2008 11:15:00 PM

ok.. Recently I'm confused..
over r/s stuffs..
OK.. I'll start with some overview stuff first..
There's two guys after me currently.
first 1 we'll call him LOST
second 1 we'll call him ALPHA

LOST had been after me for quite sometime..
But we only met each other recently la..


And i have to say..
I like your attention..
I like it when you hold me during rainy days
in case i fall..
And importantly I like it whenever
you talked to a girl
you will tell me who is that girl and stuffs
It gives me a sense of secure..

However..
I hate it when you hold me too much
I hate it when u insisted what u want
even after i say no..
u know that if u insist u will get ur way
cos it's my weakness
and u use it on me
i don't like that..
cos i feel that u dun gif me enough respect

Now about ALPHA
he's only been after me recently..

I like you for being a gentlemen.
treating me stuff and such..
though i return u the money.
but i like it when u do that... It's sweet..
I like you when u respect me..

However..
I hate it when u cant even answer simple question
to whether u are serious in me or as a fling
I hate it whenever u dun want to ans my call
or talk to me u off ur mobile..
Maybe u had ur reason
BUT i don't care..

Compare the two of them

ALPHA is good looking..
and he offers to pay for everything..
Of course.
i dun believe guy SHOULD pay for everything
but at LEAST he has to offer..
because it shows some sweetness..
and i agree i waiver because he's good looking
stand a higher chance..

BUT looks isn't everything..
the fact that he even needs to think
whether he is serious with me
turns everything off..
I don't ask much
i don't need promises.
i don't need him to love me forever.
i juz need an assurance..
to tell me he's serious in me..

LOST loses at looks..
But the thing is he can give me assurance..
through his actions..
he may be acting it out or whatever..
but i don't care..
i FEEL it..
that's important..

BUT
i don't know..
I always feel he doesn't give me enough respect..
it freaked me out..
he's abit touchy
(not purposely touched ur breast or
what juz touchy hope u all noe what i meant)

that freaked me out oso..
AND the thing is
when i told him there's a competitor
he juz told me
if u are meant to be mine u will be mine..

but i dun need u to tell me big talks
cos i think i can do better..
LOL
i need u to feel jealous
not act nonchanlant..
I am a girl
i need what a girl wants
when u said that.
It just shows to me you don care..

I have been feeling fustrated..
But now i noe who i want to choose..
I rather give up both..
Than picking some 1 that is wrong..
because i WANT a serious r/s..
of course
i am telling u guys here..
so if u all still wanna go after me
i'm fine :)
but if u all think i am too picky and u wanna give me up
it's fine too :)

BUT every girl got their expectation..
i am jus stating mine..
I don't need u to be rich and VERI good looking..
i just need u to have the right attitude towards how u treat me :)
I don't want to live in regret
and end up both party.
ME an YOU getting hurt

so yup..
I'll stop here..
continue or give up it's up to u guys..
I'm going to take a bath le..
TATA~

Life is a song and I'll play for you.