If Life is a song, I'll play for you.

FUCK IT! worst day i had this year!

Thursday, April 10, 2008 at 4/10/2008 10:07:00 AM

I shall not elaborate much about the outings.
I'll juz say what happen during the night..
simple..
we missed our bus
and we decided to ton all night...
there was me, KAZIO, YUME, TOSHIRO, and WOSHIBEN...

OK so we were doing truth or dare.
and aparrently TOSHIRO had to do a dare..
IT's quite a simple dare...
He have to take off his pants
show us his boxer..
And he did it...
I'm sure many guys will think it's a chicken feed thing..
cos u guys do it at home rite?
the only challenge is it's in public..
but there wasn't a single soul at 3 am?

And i suggested it...
so WOSHIBEN starts saying..
u ask him to do..
u shall have to take off ur pants and show ur panties..
i was like y??
it's impossible..
and some how change to show bra..
but it was stil difficult for me..
cos no matter how open i am.
i am NOT comfortable showing my bra to any TOM DICK OR HARRY!

Fuck it!
i got the dare and i had to do it..
but i was trying to push it away..
and u noe what he said?
so troublesome!
I was like wtf!
FINE i DID IT!
and after i did it there isn't any encouraging words..
he juz say easy what..juz show ant..
that point i was like fuck off..
but nvm i bear with it..
it's a game i had to play along..

KAZIO's turn to suffer same fate as me..
she took a longer time..
they did say she is troublesome..
but after she done it WOSHIBEN were like u rock girl..
nvm i am fine with it..
i am not HIS close friend anyway
and in some truth..
they found out i was not a virgin..

and whenever ppl ask abt truth..
abt whether had sex b4..
he kept saying not like some 1
had so many BF before..
even do before
SO INDECENT...
AND he repeated many times!!!

THE PROB IS SO WHAT I AM NOT A VIRGIN?
THAT DOESN'T MEAN I GO AROUND TO BEHAVE LIKE A SLUT
I JUZ MAKE LOVE WITH MY EX COS I WANTED TO GIVE IT TO HIM
WHAT'S FUCKING WRONG WITH THAT?
ANY1 WHO FUCKS BEFORE IS CALLED INDECENT?
THEN WHY SO MANY GIRLS WANTS HAVE PREMARITAL SEX?
TO BE LABELLED AS INDECENT?
EVEN IF HE DOESN'T MEANT IT.
HE SHOULDN'T SAY THINGS LIKE THAT!
COS HE SHOULD HAVE HIS LIMIT!

and he was saying like girls muz take off pants next...
den kazio was like are u mad?
den he's like muz what we take pants off u oso muz what..
WOSHIBEN: relax i'm not going at u
it's her..

so i'm being targeted in a game..
how good???
THE funny thing is after 1 dare
1 start to feel veri veri angry..
and blood rushes in and tears welling up!
and i shouted at him..
and GUESS WHAT???
he said he didn't said those thing??
TURNS OUT HE"S A HUMJI..
DON"T EVEN DARE TO ADMIT WHAT HE HAD SAID.
I DON'T NEED HIM TO APOLOGISE..
BUT HE NEEDS TO ADMIT WHAT HE HAD SAID..
AND HE DON'T EVEN WANNA TALK THINGS OUT
HE'S CHILDISH OR JUZ PLAIN COWARD?
DON WANT TO SOLVE PROB..
WANNA TRY AND ACT FIERCE AND STUFF ONLY

if u dare to say all that..
jolly well admit it..
it takes two hands to clap..
i might have done something to piss u off
but know ur fucking limits..
don put blame on me by saying..
ppl got limits don show me attitude..
THINK ! if u want me to have limit
den why are u saying hurtful things
like she's INDECENT!
KNOW ur limits!!!!

AT LEAST I CAN ANSWER TO MY HEART AND CONSCIENCE THAT
WHATEVER I SAID
I HAVE ADMIT IT!
I MIGHT BE WRONG TO FLARE..
bUT IF U HAVE NO FAULT AT ALL
WHY SHOULD I EVEN FLARE?

Here i am not trying to see who is right or wrong..
but if he's going to say that i am
those ppl who cant take joke..
den this post is to let u know what exactly happened..
and that the joke is too much..
KAZIO AND TOSHIRO AND YUME IS THERE
so ask them..
of cos if they can betray their conscience and said
NO ben neva did that at all..
i really got nth to say..
but as long as i am able to answer what i've said
i don't give a fuck abt what u guys think..

i juz want to clarify...!

p.s sry ppl for too much usage of vulgarities..
but i'm damn pissed and angry now..
and sorry kazio yume and toshiro..
sorry to put u guys in a spot..
but KAZIO..
u noe why i cant stand these things so i need to clarify..
so sry..

Life is a song and I'll play for you.