If Life is a song, I'll play for you.

2 more days to BirtHdaY!!!!

Sunday, May 18, 2008 at 5/18/2008 09:43:00 PM

I spent the entire day whining at home!
On how sick i was and stuff!!!
and yeah!
It sucks to the max!
no fun
no care
no love and all
The only love i received from
was from belinda..
as in pure concern.
The rest?
well. Just woo haaing me..
if u don't get what it means.
It's ok.
I am just too bored and starts rumbling here.
Come to realise something.
for the past 18 years,
Every years there seems to be
some major turning point that led me
to be more stronger.
But this year there isn't.
Of course i shouldn't pray for it to happen.
BUT without them?
I couldn't sense the care and concern
from people i really really care.
Why is it that
only when I'm in my most down period?
People care for u the most?
Or is it because when i'm at my most vulnerable?
Then i start to cherish people around me?
I really don't know.
But life just feels so empty some how.
without love.
Maybe because when i was happily
enjoying myself.
I never did care about them as well.
But i really feel empty.
this happiness i had.
It's all not genuine.
May be we really have to experience sadness.
Before u really feel HAPPY once and for all.
Maybe it's time to show more care
towards everything around me.
I shouldn't take things for granted i guess.
And i guess i did for the past 5 mths.

Life is a song and I'll play for you.