If Life is a song, I'll play for you.

If I Only had 24 hour to live

Saturday, May 24, 2008 at 5/24/2008 05:46:00 PM

Seriously have u all ever wondered
What will u guys do when You are only left with
24 hours to live?
Haha
It's time to think about it.
Because no one knows when
U might just suddenly drop dead.

BUT if i Knew that i have another 24 hour before
I leave this world
This is what i will do:

8am-9am: I will Brush my teeth and eat my breakfast with my Paternal grandma.
U know It's being a very long time
since i practically sit down at the kitchen
eating breakfast with my grandma.
There is SOOO many things I would like to tell her.
I LOVE HER
Even though she is very naggy at times -.-
And very unreasonable at times-.-
I still love her alot.
I remembered There's 1 period of time
i kept dreaming that she passed away!
and guess what she say?
I know u can't wait for me to die
I am like WTF!
IT hurts!
I cried waking up from my sleep because i thought she's dead.
UNTIL after crying awhile i realised IT's a dream
and She ACTUALLY said that!
OUCH!
BUT i don't blame her.
cos she's already so old tends to think more.
I wanna thank her for taking care of me
since young
U know i am able to grow up without bruises
because she's always the 1 falling
JUST to prevent me from falling :p

8-8.30 am: I will tell my Paternal grandpa sorry and called my aunt (father's sister).
Because I always disliked him and thinks that he is the worst grandpa.
but recently i just sort out that he can be quite nice at times.
Aunt: Teach me many things. And talk to me when i was young
like my second mother.
But as i grow up we drifted But we still talk occasionally.
and i thanked her for that.

8.30-1.30 am: Go find my mummy and aunt and do shopping together for the LAST time
They always shop at this type of timing -.-
bounded by children haha!
And really had to thank my aunt ALOT
because she really dote on me when my mum had left me
AND i wanna tell my mum alittle secret.
I was very happy when she left me! haha
Because finally no 1 caned me!
BUT when time goes by
I hate it!
Because of the emotional stress i had to faced
No right or wrong education
However i accept her decision
because she is happier :)
And besides she at least still care for us :)

1.30- 3.30 pm: I will go back to SCC
and practise my songs
Together with Jia Yi they all! haha
They are the ones who made my poly life GREAT!!!
AND i want them to make a CD of me singing :)
Singing 如果
It's the best song i written so far.
And tell Jiayi that sometimes I ps u
some times i am insensitive
BUT know for sure i never did it on purpose :)
cos u're the last person i would want to hurt :)
ok sounds mushy -.-

3.30-4.30 pm : I wanna go find my mother's side grandpa.
I AM GUILTY!
It's being a long time since I visit him!
Chinese New year till now :(
I remember how nice he used to treat me.
Buy me things i like and stuff
I wanna buy him portable radio.
Because his current ones are malfunctioning soon.
ACTUALLY I always say that
BUT i haven bought him 1 yet.
Cos I have bad money management.

4.30- 6.30 pm: I wanna eat dinner with ANNIE and SHERMAIN
Because they are my primary school and secondary school
Best friends.
And i wanna share my last day with them
Annie: best soul mate.. Only u know what i want. and sorry sometimes
i am quite a bitch. Insensitive to your when you are sick and all.
BUT i am guilty just that u know i am stubborn like hell
i will never confess i am in the wrong
Main: Sometimes i hate u cos u always ps me! Literally ALWAYS!
BUT I like u because u are there and a very good listener.
LOL and even though sometimes u don understand what i say
u say u do to appease me
and really appreciate that! BUT i discover that le!
lol

6.30-7.00 pm : I wanna call Jocelyn and Fion
Though now we are more like strangers then friends
BUT i like to thank them for being my friend and tolerate
ALL my nonsense when i was in secondary school
BUT now they have their FRIENDS and BFS
we drifted apart
I am quite disappointed with u because u never change
always full of excuse.
u know who u are.

I used to be an ASS HOLE friend
What i want i MUST get!!!
And because of that!
I learned MANY hard lesson in Life.
BUT all four of them are always there with me!

7.00-8.00 pm : I wanna watch tv.
I know it sounds Stupid -.-
BUT i won have a chance to watch TV anymore.
so i HAVE to get that chance right ? LOL

8.00- 9.00 pm: I wanna Use computer.
same reasons as above :p

9.00 - 10.00 pm : I wanna talk to my dad!
I have SOOO many things to tell him!
I wanna say I hate him!!!
I hate him for mistaking that caring for his child
means giving me a shelter and food
hating him for not even bothering to talk to me at all
hating him for not even bothering to ask me how's school?
hating him for not even bothering to ask
how's life
hating him for putting himself before me
BUT despite all these I Thank him for giving me a life
although this world is not perfect
my life is not perfect
but i met many wonderful people
and maybe because of all these
I am different from Others.
And LASTLY i always wanted to tell him
it is OKAY for him to have a gf
he doesn't need to be so secretive
BUT i never got the courage to tell him..

10.00 to the moment i Die : If i have a bf i will spend it with him
If not i will spend it alone
BUT the things i will do is still the same
I will read my diary.
laugh through my memories
and cry through my memories
with him by my side would be the best! haha
BUT it's OK even if it's on my own.
I want to look back on all those beautiful
and ugly memories
thinking how much I've changed
and sleep and die peacefully.
If he is there with me
i wanna share my past with him
Tell him I love him.
And let him know how silly i was in my past :)
And i need him to do 1 thing for me
ask him to tell every one that I don't want them to cry on
the day i die.
Cause i cant face the fact and i will be very sad if they cry.
I want them to smile :)
choose to live life happily!
cos i despise ppl who indulge in self pity FOREVER!
it's ok to grumble about life once in awhile
i DO that too.
BUT after grumbling! stand up and move on!
and u will see life in a new light.

OK i said all that is not because i predict I'm dying soon
But all these are the things i wanted to say!
like for so long
BUT i NEVER GOT THE CHANCE
OR COURAGE TO SAY
AND I'm afraid that one day i just passed away
and i never had the chance to say
cos life is unpredictable.
i put this post up is so that
if i really die (CHOY!)
pls help me tell my family.
Cos i know they will never get to see this
as for friends.. :)
all these are what i want to say to u :)

Life is a song and I'll play for you.