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I didn't went to school today
It's my fault My hp low batt and it's off so alarm didn't ring and hence I slept till 9am >.< Anyway i receive a scholarship and OMG! The sum was quite huge.. AND i decided to not skip school and study hard! Because i want the MONEY!!!! OK I may sound materialistic BUT it's a good encouragement! especially with that HUGE sum of money!!! SO friends if i ever skipped school again pls tell me to think of the money.. Shall stop here.. tata!
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Throbbing headache...
Sleeping soon just like to blog what happen today Went to meet him after school and we still quarrel because when i pull his shirt wanting him to hug me or hold me he said not now very embarrassing Even after he explain what i think was not what he meant I still cant help being angry and i started dragging everything out .. I dunno what to say anymore Yes i still love him And i love him so much that If he is happier without me I will leave him.. All the decision is up to him.. Although i relent and tr not to quarrel with him I cant help thinking the kiss he gave me is superficial.. maybe I'm sensitive i dunno I don't want to think so much anymore shall leave everything to fate
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
heartbroken
我的心已撤撤底底的碎了 为何你要用最冷漠的方式 折磨着我 你说对不起 可是你造成的伤害 已烙印在心里 告诉我为何我要得到这种惩罚？ It's 5.30 in the morning I didn't sleep well My tears are drying soon yes i cried again because of him again BUT this time i really cant take it what have i done to deserve that? I did my utter best to be a good gf to trust him BUT what i received was cold treatment from him. He went MIA last night. Although I am worried i couldn't sleep BUT i didn't cry i try m very best to push everything behind. by 4 plus i saw him online but his phone is still off I msn him he didn't reply I have to beg him to reply me and when he does reply guess what? He: I am not in a good mood hence no mood to talk or sms Me: Is it because of me? He: NO He: It's my friend. Me: Then what did i do to deserve this treatment? Me: even if u were so stress at least tell me He:sorry I am not a gd bf Me: NO i am sorry Me: sorry for the fact that to you i am such a nuiscance Me: so much so that even u cant just send a messsge to tell me you need some time alone. Me: Sorry I portray such image Me: I won disturb you again.. It continues on.. He tried persuading me BUT guess what? At 4 plus he told me he's tired and wanna sleep ask me to get some sleep 4 plus? when i start preparing school at 5 It's fine with me all i ask for is to hear his voice Just before he sleep BUT he rejected me He tell me he is sorry but yet this is the treatment i received.. why can't he just spare me 1 min 1 min to just hear his voice? No i am not angry.. I am just so heart broken it's like a few hours ago he just said he love me and 7 plus he just said he will sms me when he reach home and 8 plus?he went MIA. And the reason being is he is stress and no mood to talk and he don bother smsing me to inform me! my heart ache it ache so much.. now it make me wonder what am i to him? Is it because i am fat ? That's y he feels that he can treat me this way.. This is what i get for loving you i dunno what else to say anymore.. I really don't.. don't tell me you love me or you're sorry SHOW ME! please... 这次的我无法停住眼泪 我什么都做不到 原来我所付出的在你眼里 什么都不是。。。 我真的真的好失望。
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
I have a joke of the day to tell you today
and I am that joker quite a stupid joker indeed.. -.- Went to Elias mall to check the price of lamination service and do some personal stuff after that soon later i proceeded home And from far i saw this bus with green tag stated town link and 35- i cant see the last number clearly and i got up the bus since this bus had no T i did not alight at interchange and to my horror I discovered that it is 359 when it went to it's destination to pick up passengers and due to my ego i did not have the gut to ring the bell and get down so i went along and pretend that i wanted to take this bus. LUCKILY for me that this bus only travels in pasir ris so i alight somewhere where there is bus for me to bused back home I am supposedly able to reach home by 4 plus because of this mistake only got to reached home at 5 plus.. When i reached home I smell durian! OMG a long time since I've eaten durian and it was DELICIOUS! Yummy!!!! OK i need to say something Today i offended some 1 either she's angry or sad i dunno but yeah i apologise for the staightforwardness but I did not regret what i say I am really pissed with you but not to the extend of angry But don't I have the right to be angry? If u really did a good job and maybe I shouldnt complain but so far u keep forgetting your things yes i understand ppl do forget and you do have other things to worry abt but we also have other things to worry abt if we can do it den i don see why u can't.. Anyway I just wanna be truthful to you I don't want to tell you i am not pissed with you end up i tell ppl i am pissed with you. which is worst? Of course if u prefer me to not tell you my true feeling I can just jolly well shut up but then That's not what frien do If i do that I am just being a two headed snake. Once again sorry to hurt your feeling
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Hmm..
Haven bath Now waiting for show to start from the commercial break Went out with Dearest yesterday Met at Tampiness mall And watch the Dark Knight I shall rate it at 3.5/5 First part was quite boring But as the show goes It became more exciting and WOW! Christian Bale is so sexy his eyes is gorgeous! LOL After the show we proceeded home and on the bus back home i saw Jocelyn! I was like OMG! It has been a long time since i see her she was once my best friend But perhaps we did not play bball anymore there's no common factor between us anymore we drifted apart.. BUT it was good to see her again! :) Ok i Just saw the MP result Dunno if i should be happy or sad 血got second last however 棉花糖 got in second... but I ain't really affected by the mp result because whatever song i perform never gets in first for mp before. Maybe i don sing well enough ba. BUT i am confident 血is gonna get in concert ! I have the confidence! :) OK i need to get going now bathing soon heez :) 好想你 只分开了那一下下 好像分开一世似的 好想好想 抱紧你
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Ok it's 6.35 am in the morning
and I cant get to sleep The reason being I slept too early last night and my biological clock is too used to waking up this early -.- quite retard i know But oh well.. Alot of thing ran through my mind and i thought maybe i should blog it out I'm so tired... Tired of ppl always thinking I'm angry for the slightest reason During project It's always like that Shermain said that maybe classmates don understand me well and yeah.. But that's the way i talk When i get excited over some things My voice naturally gets higher and ppl thinks that I'm angry or sometimes i am pissed with myself I am terrible at art i feel irritated when i try to put the pieces of info together in the brochure and yet it looks ugly and disorientated and i told jihan ai ya anything la u put.. and she thought I'm angry. BUT I am just pissed with myself that it looks ugly no matter how i placed it so i decide to let her decide.. Still rmb Fara asked me about the brochure and she changed some idea without consulting us to me it's not impt because I am not gd at art so I rather don make decision The only thing I am worried about is the brochure not enough space But since she clarify her pointts i told her ok u ask the others and she thinks that I'm angry even if I am not by the way i am not harping on this matter just that I need to explain why ppl think I am angry so no offense this leads me to another pt I HATE MSN! Because I am so not good at typing I am some one who pursue something real I need to see the face hear the voice etc.. In msn If i can type as short as possible I will do that and what i get is ppl telling me I'm rude in msn I'm angry BUT how can you guys know whether the person is rude or angry when u cant even see the facial expression? Haiz... Am I really so unapproachable? ppl thinks that I am angry for the slightest reason OK I admit I am some one who wants to win I will put my best in a game and hence agressive BUT I am NOT a sore loser I don get angry just because I lose. Maybe I should make myself clear. When I am angry I don't talk to anyone I show black face Because I don't want to throw my temper at any one I prefer to shut up SO PLEASE don assume I'm angry for the slightest reason Because it's tiring Tiring to explain that i am not angry and yet I don't know if the receiver gets my message or simply doubting me.. I admit I have a short temper and i get irritated easily BUT angry and irritated is different I am still trying to change my temper But I am not a super woman I take 2 years to change my bad temper to short temper BUT now it's already four years and i still have that short temper in me although it's getting better but I am still short temper. BUT BELIEVE ME I AM TRYING HARD TO CHANGE Sorry that I might bring out the image that I am some petty girls or some dominating shit BUT please give me a chance and not condemn me by my tone and think that I am petty and angry for no reason.. I cant change my voice it's just the way i talk It just gets higher when i get excited Maybe I should just shut up? I dunno... Maybe i should change the way I say things.. whatever it is I'm tired..
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Went to interact club today
and haha fruitful Hope i will start soon And saw 1 eye candy there!!! WEET!!! My priority is not the cca pts since SCC can be allowed to be my cca I just hope to know more friends because i have NO LIFE I basically got NO FRIENDS in ite except my class mates -.- Anyway Just finished making dearest card tml is our 2 mths and cant meet him since he finishes his school at 10 pm haiz And now he MIA again I'm so tired every time he mia i cant slp -.- haiz and I know he is not angry because we were fine just now either he is still outside doing proj which i doubt so or he is already at home sleeping.. I chose to believe that... because i don't want to believe he will be outside with other girls besides me whatever IT is I will not cry Even if i cant sleep I WILL NOT CRY!!! If he doesn't call me today he will call me tml I just have to trust him 为了你眼泪不能流下 绝对不能！！！ I will be alright! I must endure It's today or never i must survive the test and not let imagination run round I MUST TRUST HIM! ok it's not convincing but I don't care! I am trying hard!!!
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
 Was browsing through my hp
when i found this This photo make me laugh like hell It was on the day we went to my mum's cuisine for his proj we were on the bus and he was playing with the evian water he pulled out the wrapper and said dear look at me the next thing i know the label is on him He named himself EVIAN -.- Ok this post is so random But it's cute so i decided to post it Anyway I've decided to go back to the happy me No i am not a superwoman I will still blog some emo stuffs BUT I will try to not make him my priority No it's not that I don love him anymore But I wanna Love myself more Ok I have been saying that for past few days but because I need to remind myself so yup ok shall stop here tata!
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Whoa!
Today is such a LONG day! Went to audition for Showcase today I joined with Donovan a few weeks ago And I must say Hmmm. We already did our best... However I don't think we can get in... If we never get in I will be quite disappointed Cos We spent sooooo much time in practising. But however I am very satisfied with my performance today :) After the song It's the judges time to give comment and he said WONDERFUL SINGER!!! WAHAHA!!! WONDERFUL SINGER!!! I'm going gaga over this comment WONDERFUL SINGER WONDERFUL SINGER WONDERFUL SINGER It's ringing in my head now XD lol! Too bad Don too nervous. If not we sure in Now we can only pray hard *chuckles* But nvm! DON DON tried his best le Since it's his first time performing It's natural to be nervous Because even I was nervous I can practically hear the trembling in my voice at first All I can say is This is really a Very good experience for both of us! DON practice perform in front of more people and next year we join again SURE can make it! haha :p haha.. OK I need to go now talk again next time tata!
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
OK
I have two person to thank in my blog They are not the Most important people And Nope I can live my life without them But they are the sweetest person on earth and I manage to survive today It's all because of them!!! These 2 person is DANG DANG DANG! Chinn Yee and Belinda Thanks Chinn Yee for chatting with me till 2 plus am Without u I might cry like 1 puffy fish.. Thanks Belinda For giving me hug I needed that :) And she kept asking me if i was ok . Seriously first time they see me so emo And I'm so sorry that They were worried because of me. BUT oh well I told myself i am going to try to trust him and stop imagining things. I know i can do it! 因为他眼泪 不由自主地往下流 现在为了他 我要忍着不让眼泪流 见了他 他看见我生病还去找他 他抱紧我 告诉我他爱我 要我别胡思乱想 因为那句话与行动 我打算好好地 信任他 I believe I can do it! 怀疑是自己编造的内容 JIA YOU! focus on studies! I CAN!!!
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Last post before I go to sleep today
I just finished writing my notes for SHN OK not ALL! but i think i completed half already... Now I only left with script to worry about i guess I really hate myself sometimes. Really no life My blog is all about him and the despair desperation everything i felt for him It seems like my life only resolves around him and yet his life resolves around school 不对我不是在埋怨 no I am not complaining I just hope i can be like him. And i guess i should try to be like him. Because my focus should be on studies. Yes I know it's easier said than done But i am not going to give up i want to at least try first 其实我真的不好受 因为当他没打给我 我快疯了 可是经过那天 他对我宽容的呵护 我下定决心 我要相信他 所以我告诉自己 他只是睡着了 他醒来了一定会打给我的！ 一定会 海铭 如果你会看到 我想告诉你 我真的真的尽力在改 尽力相信你 可是我不是superwoman 我不可能一下子就变 可是至少我相信你 So I believe you Even though part of me are having confusion part of me are telling myself to doubt you part of me telling myself u wanna leave me BUT I am pushing all these aside trying my best... because i really trust you and i don't want my imagination to be the one making you leave me I can do it I know I can . 我一定可以的！
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
I just realised how busy this week is going to be for me..
好繁忙的一个星期哦！ projects to rush test to sit for every Thursday! Besides that this week not only i have monthly performance but also the audition for showcase. 突然发现有好多 好多事情必须要做 还好projects已做得七七八八了 省script还有测验要赶 忙透了! seriously i am not very happy these few days How some 1 can make u laugh for the stupidest reason and make u cry for the stupidest reasons.. And that person surprisingly is myself. I hate it when i'm paranoid. but tell me! how not to? haiz... can my mind just stop brooding over it? 拜托！ 请不要胡思乱想。 我不想过这样的生活！
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Sick all over again..
又生病了。 好辛苦。 可能因为昨晚哭了一整夜。 今天起来头好重好重。 额头也开始变烧。 好辛苦 可是最辛苦的是心。。。 我知道我可能想太多了。 如果昨晚他没接电话 我可以当作他睡着了 可是我看到userbusy 我像疯子一般疯。 从两点多到六点早上 userbusy 难道他和别人有这么多话题吗？ 现在我希望他能够 尽快打电话给我。。 因为真的不好受。。。 cried for the whole night my tears have already run dry I might be paranoid yes. I hope i am.. I don't want the thing i dread to happen now.. cant talk much now.. got to rest that is if i can.. and proceed to doing project ... 我在等你的电话。。。
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
无奈
今天特别早起 所以打算来这里blog 哈哈! 会选折用华文因为 不想我班的有些马来人看到 不对！！！！ 这不是种族歧视。。。 而是我需要这样做 还记得上次我们做projects 大多数的人没来 而我在这里说了 我的感想 他看到了 不爽！ 不过说真的 我没后悔说那番话 因为我部相信会有那么多巧合。 belin 的婆婆进医院 另外两名说眼睛痛和阿姨进医院 随便啦！ 反正事情也已经过了 可是我无法忍受的是 既然已经说好这件事不会引起什么fight 就因该这样啊！ 可是我还是感觉到 那股杀气 我也开始越来越讨厌 他们 讨厌他们常常用知己的语言 而我必须猜老半天他们说什么。 好累好累！ 在体育课终于让我看到什么叫 TEAMWORK 根本就是只传给马来人。 以前在poly或是中学 华人根本不会只跟华人说华语 只传球给华人 我开始觉的恶心。。。 而不写英文的目的 是因为写了变成整班的敌人 那可不妙！ 我还有一年半载 我可不想历史从演。 谁叫我生处在一个马来多过华人的环境。 无奈 真是无奈。。。
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
I know some things but i cant say!!!
:x Nvm when everything can be say then i post out.. BUT now pls look at ppl around u and start cherishing. Because when everything is going well People might just leave... so yup That makes me thinking....
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Performance was a success
Went to Civic plaza to perform for the no smoking campaign today. I was late T.T Sorry peeps! Wasn't quite satisfied Because I was so nervous that I missed many parts. BUT nvm COS all the audience don know! LOL I have skill Was rather happy today! Because SCC peeps said that i Improved alot My voice no linger that sharp anymore BUT it might be due to help of the mic. WHATEVER it is I am still happy. Thanks Dearest There to watch me perform... After that we went to have lunch den went back home with him To take money for dinner we went to have dinner at My Mum's Cuisine. Located at paragon #b1-42/43 It tasted fantastic! LOVE the oyster egg! YUMMY!!! HAHA... We went there to eat cos dearest need to do his proj! AND i did help him !! haha He said i am smart and yeah i knew it long time ago ;p Anyway I just realised Business is a very easy subject As long as u work in service line before. It's basically common sense! HAHA shall stop here talk to you again~ TATA
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Tired....
AHHH!!! I cant get used to school life So tired every day!! Not enough sleep :( Yesterday I went back to Ngee Ann to perform. Tml Performing at woodland Civic Plaza Quite excited!!!! HAHA!!! Seriously I need a CCA!!! And i wonder whether SCC can be counted as my cca ? Does ITE accepts outside CCA? Hmm i wonder... Haiz haven talk to Dearest since last night Missed him like hell! Am able to see him tml! YEAH!!!! OK I'm getting lazy to blog Talk to you again soon! TATA!!!!
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Went to school Today
And ok lor... But i felt sleepy halfway through. I Dread going to school Especially when school starts early. Why can't we have something that doesn't require studying? Ok i am lazy and i know it BUT ARGH!!!! IF ONLY we do not need to go to school OR if school can start later. It's just so tiring going to school early And my attendance needs to improve Since my first letter is out Bleahz I wouldn't want to get debarred IF only i can be like Dearest So focus on his studies. :( TEACH ME HOW TO STUDY!!!! :(
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Holiday mood...
SCHOOL is starting TOMORROW!!! And i am still in Holiday mood! And I HAVEN even study anything! fuck fuck fuck ! How lazy can i get? Always procasinate and ended up i am not studying at all! haiz like this how can i fulfill my dreams? Anyone have any idea? Tell me how do u guys study? Give me some tips PLEASE!!!! How do you do that? How can u sit down and study? How do you prevent yourself from procasination? PLEASE TEACH ME IF U HAVE TIPS!!! I need it badly!!!! Thanks..
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
ease...
Sometimes I don't know what to say Sometimes I just feel like throwing all away. Why should I even bother When all i get is trouble When conflicts arises I looked into your eyes What i see are images of you walking away. And all i can do is cry The things u promise The things u swear U told me that u will do whatever u swear. So tell me? are your promises meant to be broken? I don't want to believe I don't want to see I want everything to be at ease. Please let everything be at ease...
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
听到我的电话响
会不会是你 我总怀疑 因为这原因 心情不稳定 我们之间的问题 是我不相信你 敏感又多心怕你变心 因为爱你 害怕失去你. baby 我想对你说声对不起 用错的方式去爱你 因为我太爱你 如果没有你 我的生命会是灰色地 所以请你不要离去 我说你让我看不清楚 你让我害怕在爱中迷路 告诉我 你愿意用生命阻挡 任何伤害我的人 就算被冷落 或是我犯错 你都不会走. 我越是幸福越害怕 怕它会结束 越拥抱却越是孤独 每人了解的孤独 我自己照顾.
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
Short hair now
OK!!! I officially take off my extention le. And i Cut my hair too. NOw it's super duper short. It's fucking UGLY!!! So ppl who are seeing me soon. PLS! Don't tell me i look ugly. Because i know that very well Thank you very much. Nth much to update le TATA!
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
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