I loved him
I seriously do
I am not going to say
some emo stuff like i cant do without him
Because i Know I'm strong enough to survive
we only been together for 3 mth plus
if i cant survive this
I'm not Avier Kwek Shan Yun

But i seriously Do love him
So much so that
I am willing to
be with him again
despite him cheating on me
He love some 1 else
But he NEVER had the courage to tell me these
He treat me like princess
and everything
But why?
Because he's guilty
and he couldn't bear to hurt me
But because of this!
I sank deeper
I love him deeper!
and to find out that
he doesn't love me at all..

He say he will always be there
as a friend
but can i request for something else?
I know that jolly well it will never happen
BUT why?
why did u led me in
Why?
Why did i lose to some1 older den me?
she's married
she had a kid
and she's nt coming back to you anymore
me?
I don mind coming back to you
But u still wanna chuck me aside
I know u don want to lie to me anymore
I appreciate it

BUT IT HURTS
it hurts me so much to know that
u never love me
no matter how well u treat me
deep inside
u treated me as a friend
that's fucking hurtful
you know?
even if u lied to me
and say u love me
just that u don love me as much
as you love her
I'll feel much better


when u have to tell me the truth
u don't have that fucking courage
but when it's time for u to
tell me a white lie
u have to tell me
u don't love me ..
I am just some replacement


I want to hate you
but i like you so much that
I hate myself
so many times
my 6th sense have been right
but i took no notice
I wanna be angry with you
But i'm angry with myself
Because as much as i wana sever all ties with you
i chose to keep u as a friend
to take in your love and concern
even as a friend
that hurts
but it hurts more to completely let u go

That is how much i like you ...
and that is how u repay me..

maybe it's true
幸福比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的痛苦
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子。

Like i say
I love you and i really do
I know i am being clungy and sticky
to you
BUT i will get over it
i wanna be the bestest friend with you
i want you to be there when i am down
but i dunno if i can
maybe 1 day
i will make that choice of severing all ties with u
but i'm nt strong enough now
so pls bear with me for a moment
because after so many things
this is all u can do for me...
if you really really wanna minimize
the pain

I will never forgive myself
for trusting you
I kept thinking I'm paranoid
but maybe i'm not after all
I told you b4 that at least that woman
she can get back to her husband
me? I have nth left
U told me that i am better than her
she's old married she's locked
i can still find some 1 else
but fuck
I don't know about the future
BUT NOW I WANT NOBODY BUT YOU!
don't you understand?
You love her!
You sympathize with her?
what about me?
I am so angry !
so angry i wanna burst!
but I am even angrier with myself
I don't want to let you go out of my life completely
So i chose to live with it
you being my friend...
I cant forget every thing you said and done
and that hurts the most because in the end
it's all a pack of lies
you just did that to make your guilt go away.

你说的话再我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心会疼
记忆再我的心中翻滚
是不是每个人
都像我一样笨？