It's Over

I don't want to say any further
But it's over between me and him
I gave him 2 choices
and he picked that

When everything is going so well
In 1 min
Just 1 min the whole ending could change
Just 1 min
People fall in and out of love in that 1 min
People were born in that 1 min
people died in that 1 min
But why?
I don't understand why me

No matter how paranoid I am
I trusted him
I trusted his words
trusted whatever he say
and this is what i get in the end
He was everything I wanted
and he seems so perfect for me
but maybe
just maybe
I am never suited for happiness
I always need to work fucking hard for it
and yet end up getting fucking hurt
because of that few moment of happiness
FUCK!

Why can't I just have something in life
that just go my way for once
and STOP HURTING ME FOR ONCE!
I HATE IT!
FUCKING HATE IT!
If i were to choose
can i pls have life that goes my way?
I don't mind being weak
I don't mind being nt as sharp as i am now
BUT
WHY CAN'T IT JUST GO MY WAY FOR THAT
FUCKING 1 TIME!!!!!
WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO WORK HARD
TO GET SOME THING IN EXCHANGE!
I DON'T WANT IT THIS WAY!
I'VE WORKED FOR 11 YEARS
EVERY YEAR BOUND TO BE SOMETHING
WHEN THE FUCK WILL IT STOP!
please fucking go away...

please..