OK I know this is sooo soo off
I am suddenly motivated by some quotes
I was reading Don blog when i saw this

I may be walking slowly
But I will not walk back wards

And I am thinking am i walking backwards now?
by not attending school and stuff?
this really make me wonder
Why in the first place did i transfer to ite
If I am going to skip classes and stuff

Everyone has been telling me
it's such a waste for me to go to ite
some even say I'm stupid to give up studying a dip
BUT i was determined to go to ite early childhood
I want this to be my stepping stone
to being a child psychiatrist
I was so determined at that time

BUT what am i doing now?
why should I even enter this course
to skip classes when i can do that in poly?
I'm already walking backwards
to walk a longer journey
by giving up my dip course
and now I'm walking even further back..

I grumbled
sometimes i told myself that
Dorcas seems to dote on 1 person alot
Always giving chance to that person
and causing the rest of us being discouraged

But i woke up suddenly
She's right
that person is constantly proving herself
that she can be trusted and so on
what right have i to complain?
when all i do is skipped classes?
yeah
i am not offended
in fact she's right
Who would want to trust some one
who don come to school
and always giving attitude

I always thought that if she give me a chance we can prove that
we can do as well as her
LOL
i am such an idiot to think of that
WHY should she even give me a chance to prove?
when others are constantly proving themselves?

I seriously need to get out of this situation
i haven realised for years that
my biggest challenge is my laziness
it has been following me for 3 years
and in this 3 years
i find excuses to cover it up
seriously if i wanted to cont study in pol
I can
BUT i gave up saying it's not my type
what excuse can i give now?
LOL
I don't know now..
nvm i should stop typing all these
i am getting the nerves of everyone
always being emo

sometimes we can't expect life to be perfect
we can only take and live with what we have
and be happy about it..

ok this is so off
i am not making sense and bla bla bla...

BYE!