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Wednesday, August 20, 2008 at 8/20/2008 07:33:00 PM |
Random thoughts again
It's been a long time since I literally start thinking Seriously I'm jealous jealous of so many ppl Annie, Cy, Shermain, Belinda and Don
All of them have something in common that I don't have a motivation to go to school I know it's not a big deal BUT it is to me. I mean hey? It's such a simple thing going to school but why do i find it hard to do so?
I keep telling myself keep writing in blog that i will work hard i will go to school i will study hard BULLSHIT!!!!! on National day eve Ms Dorcas asked i thought u say u wanna come to school and not skip classes anymore
I told her I tried but still i can't nvm i shall try again another time But deep down I'm lying to myself SERIOUSLY I TRIED! But i cant get through 1 month without being absent from school and whennever i say it's ok try again next week I am just running away from it.
I remembered she once told us abt something like if u wanna do it u can don't complain and now i am really thinking is that what i want? If i really want it den why am i not doing it? If i really tried Shouldn't I be in school?
Belinda said even cy can why i can't and i really cant understand too some times i wonder why i couldn't get the motivation to go to school? I mean i don dread school but i seriously Don't love school either sometimes I just feel so out of place and so tired i really dunno the moment i wake up i have the thoughts of not going to school every single day without fail in fact even b4 i sleep i wonder whether i should attend school the next day
一睡醒 我就会觉得好累 根本没力气想上学 天使告诉我 我不是下定决心要上学了吗? 恶魔却挑拨离间 累了就睡吧 少上一天课不会死. 就这样他们大战了一会儿 幸运了话 天使就赢了 要不然你就会看到我 不在学校...
I really really dunno what to do I know my capabilities My attendance is going to kill me really... if i don study but i go to school everyday i can still pass well but if i don understand anything I'm out of the game... yes i know I know it soo soo well but so? at the end of the day I'm not in the school I really don know what to do or think So i shall not say i will be determined to go to school because i only know how to say but no action or result seen i dunno... we'll see as days goes by..
I'm so sorry that this post is so emo but i guess today is just some emo day
whatever! bye
Life is a song and I'll play for you.
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