I had a weird dream last night
well actually this morning
I dreamed of a guy first
dunno who that guy is
and dunno why he appear inside
But apparently
he was meeting me but backed out last min
and I don't know how I ended up at
Hai ming's god sister place
and some how he contacted his god sis
and not me
and he went mia on me
and i was angry
and he said things like
angry again
Because you are always angry over such things
that's why i don love you anymore
something like that..
My dream is very vague
BUT can it be this case?
Is it because i loses steam so easily
that he don love me anymore?
I want to ask him
BUT i don dare and don want to
Because I'm afraid ...

Seriously I am really surprised with the impact he has on me

But whatever it is
I'll move on just fine...
I know I can ...

As for the loses steam easily part
I am still trying to change
because that is also 1 of my weakness
It's gonna be hard
BUT yeah I can do it :)
I've already changed so much
I can do it
even if it takes me half a life to change i will
life is a learning process
we never stop changing...