I was reading something the
very chim philosophy just now
That I posted last night on my blog
And After that
I went to read my friends blog

And I realized something
I realized what I'm lacking
I'm lacking in the usage of beautiful words
And suddenly I feel
That I destroyed everything
I literally mean everything with my mouth
my words..
And my character

I always think it's so fake that
people don like you
BUT they still smile like they adore you
And I am never able to do it
BUT now I realised Maybe because
I am always so straightforward
I ended up being not so likable

And I always think that if something is not good
it's = not good
BUT some people can made it sound like
it's ok you'll just need some more adjustment and it will be perfect
and I always think that these people
are so fake
however This is a skill I guess
Fanciful words
the art of playing with words
yes it's confusing
And I'm confused too

BUT I need to change the way i talk
really
because it's perhaps why he doesn't love me as much
as that woman
I kept thinking
There's no reason why I would lose to her
BUT Maybe there's 1 thing
That I definite lose to
That's the use of words

Come to think of it
all along I've been so straight towards him
That I might be subconciously diminishing his confidence or whatever
BUT maybe that woman
she made him feel good and proud
maybe that's why he never love me

OK I'm sorry
even though I told myself not to think
About him
BUT I cannot
I kept thinking which part of me isn't good enough
and now It starts making sense
I ain't good enough for anyone at all

In fact I sucks
Bad tempered, straight forward, too confident of oneself
these 3 factor is enough to cover all the good i have
but I never realised it
till now

I have no right to criticise or judge anyone at all
I am not fit to
he made the right choice of leaving me
I should have just shut up

a life of silent would better a life of condemnation and contempt