Can someone enlighten me?
What is Best friend?
Or rather what is true friend?

They always say true friend are the ones
That's right there with you when u need them
The say true friends are the one who see your
sadness behind your eyes even though others can only see your smile

But does that mean
True friend should always be hidden behind the scene?
You know I always wonder
Those people who are very very pretty
Their so call "Sister" / "best friends"
are always the pretty ones

And Then it had me thinking
So when you are not pretty enough?
No matter how you stood by them
You don get recognized?

Yeah Take me as I'm sprouting nonsense
BUT I really wonder
People say that True friend will stand by your side silently
I think that's crap
Because Only when You're depressed
den you come looking for your true friend
and other wise you go looking for your "sisters" or "best friend"
Den aren't you just using your true friend?

I know that true friend doesn't care about being recognize
BUT when issues like this happens too many times
It make you think thrice?
It makes you think, so what am i?

Once Annie's ex Bf said
I really salute Avier
She dare to go out and be good friend with Pretty people
at first I just laughed over it
Jia yi told me to ask that guy to fuck off
because it's insulting
and come to think of it
yeah I really wonder?

Do I really have to be gorgeous
in order to be Their true friend?
I must admit that I do not have the nicest figure
the best listening ear
the sweetest tongue
or the angelic face
But what I have is standing by them
when they can find no one else
BUT even so
I do need affirmation
It's doesn't feel good to be behind the scenes all the time

Maybe because you guys are always the lime light
so it's not a concern at all
Maybe all along I've been saying : don need the whole world to know
That we're best friend
that's why you take full advantage of it
and Maybe I'm just jealous

alright ignore me
Like I say
I don have the nicest mouth for words
BUT please note that
when I say who are my best friend
I do mean it

I don say nice things just for people to like me
or to be popular.
BUT I think I should adopt that style
because I am always at the losing end
be it school work or life
maybe honeyed words mean more than anything ..

I don know and I'm confused
Someone enlighten me please!

AND DON TELL ME ABOUT
you are what you are
and that make you unique
or we like you for your directness
and whatever crap
because in this society it doesn't work this way
Because I HAVE been so truthful
that people hate me for it
so please enlighten me in a more realistic way
I don need comforting
I need realistic enlightenment
thanks...