I'm happy today...
It's been a long time
a long time since i've let my hair down
and really enjoy..

I mean Though i still have fun sometimes
but it isn't the same
for a few friends to sit down with a guitar
singing songs
lol or rather song~ -.-
hmmm

We were supposed to perform something
for a group because of their event
so yeah
I'm really happy seriously
partly because we haven been hanging out anymore either


Suddenly i got something to tell everyone of them
I seriously missed the old ABCD
seriously
maybe because we haven know each other
too well back then
and everything is simpler back then
i guess..
I missed the days where me, Cy and don used to go out
and complained Jordon wouldn't let Belin out
Because we really want her to join

I missed the times when me and belin
would talk about how we "suffered" last night
because of boyfriends
haha
I missed the days that
when i didn't come to school Belin would scold me
and asked me to come to school
I REALLY REALLY missed all that

Because somehow
I can't feel the care and concern
we had for each other now
Everyday that passes are just days
we "deal" with each other
and I seriously don't like that

But I guess Things do change

I know i sounded emo now
But I cannot help it ...
Suddenly I missed the company of real friends
Yesterday, I talked to my friend on msn
And we haven been meeting each other for 3 months
and we sort of drifted apart
i told her.

If she were to say I'm thinking too much
At least i feel more comfortable
But She agreed with me
and that really wakes me up
we ARE really drifting apart
and i am quite sad

Because it's rarely I have a friend i can really
trust and talk to
because i really really have to scan through that person
before i really am ready to regard that person as a friend
and now
we drifted apart because of 1 stupid reason
we're just too busy to meet up...

In my life
I haven done anything I've regret.
Because I always told myself that
If i were to choose that route then
I will stick with it and not regret it
But now i have 1 regret
that is not finding time to meet her

There were so many times i could have met her
But i gave excuses like
I've got no money
den when i have the money
I have no time
but now when i come to think of it
if i really really wanted to meet
I don't need any money
because i can jolly well go to her house
just to chat and see her
If i got no time
I can jolly well spare 1 hour or so
But i didn't make the efforts

That's my biggest regret
Because i assume
I assumed that we would meet 1 day
and we will still be that close
I assumed
I made and ass out of us
and I acted cool by telling her
that's life and since we've drifted then it might be fate
maybe when we meet we'll be better
ok that's crap
holy crap!

That isn't how i really think
I am seriously sad
and i really really regretted not taking the time out to meet
even for a simple chat
I always waited for them to make the first move
and now she didn't


Again my pride won over my heart
I didn't tell her what i really felt inside
but sorry
I really don't have the courage to do so ..